At school again
I am ready for the summer semester to be over. This whole waiting for an hour or more after class kills me. At least before I had homework but now I'm just bored in the computer lab. PROJECT RUNWAY IS ON! and I have to catch the rerun later. Lame.
In other news I have decided I want to re pierce my tongue web. For those who don't know I had it pierced for 2 days back in November of '06 but took it out. This time I won't use a ring and hope to keep it in. I re read the experience and I was a baby. I never even gave it a chance. Dana bear is stoked because she loves piercings and she just likes that I am showing interest in one that isn't as conventional as mine. I might have a lot but they are all pretty mainstream. This would be number 13... might make me get more out of superstition. We will see...
In other news I am in a weird place at the moment. I am always so concerned with myself and my own mental health that sometimes it is to my detriment. I tend to think about it a lot and I think i over analyze which makes it hard to tell what is really a concern and what isn't.
My previous counselor told me I am cut off from my emotions and I agreed and disagreed at the same time. My past emotions yes but I thought I was pretty in touch with my current ones. During this semester though I have been taking quite a few assessments as part of my class and two of them made me think about what she said again. On the MMPI-2 (which measures for mental disorders) I was so sure I was going to be abnormal, I was terrified to see the results. Once I got them though they said I was normal on all but one scale. On the hypermania scale, which measures activity, i was low. This suggests fatigue or depression. Then last class we took the Strong Interest Inventory and my particular profile turned out "flat". I didn't exhibit any real interest in anything. The highest interest I had was average and the rest were low. I even noticed on another test that I very rarely say I strongly disagree or strongly agree with anything. I stay in the middle.
So I started to worry and I asked Dr. Chandler. She told me if it isn't broke don't fix it, if it works leave it alone so what if it's different. But it makes me wonder.
I wonder if the emotions I am not in touch with are the strong ones. Some of the questions on one of the tests were things like have you experienced overwhelming joy and I said no. I can think of an occasion now but it was once or twice. Lots of things like that stuck out to me. I don't know but I am concerned.
What do you think?
In other news we might lose Chocolate. No one asked Dana's brother if he was giving her up forever or not, we just assumed he was. He now says that his wife would like to bring Chocolate to Germany with them. We went to the vet today (everything was good, yay!) and found out that it is a lengthy, expensive, time-consuming process. Dana is going to get the info for him. I am going to wish that he doesn't have the money and we get to keep her forever. We will see.
I am upset by it because I didn't expect it. Dana assured me she was ours (because she didn't know he would want her back) and I got attached to her. Now we are treating it as a foster situation until we know more.
It wouldn't be bad if she went with them. They spoiled her and took good care of her so I'm not worried about that but I would miss her. I've gotten attached to her already.
I told Dana if we lose her we might have to get a cat or something.
We will see what happens.
Also I haven't been feeling well so my mom wants me to get checked for hyperglycemia/diabetes/allergies. She thinks one of them might be the cause of it. Gah lame. I hate doctors.
Come on weekend!!!!
Out.
In other news I have decided I want to re pierce my tongue web. For those who don't know I had it pierced for 2 days back in November of '06 but took it out. This time I won't use a ring and hope to keep it in. I re read the experience and I was a baby. I never even gave it a chance. Dana bear is stoked because she loves piercings and she just likes that I am showing interest in one that isn't as conventional as mine. I might have a lot but they are all pretty mainstream. This would be number 13... might make me get more out of superstition. We will see...
In other news I am in a weird place at the moment. I am always so concerned with myself and my own mental health that sometimes it is to my detriment. I tend to think about it a lot and I think i over analyze which makes it hard to tell what is really a concern and what isn't.
My previous counselor told me I am cut off from my emotions and I agreed and disagreed at the same time. My past emotions yes but I thought I was pretty in touch with my current ones. During this semester though I have been taking quite a few assessments as part of my class and two of them made me think about what she said again. On the MMPI-2 (which measures for mental disorders) I was so sure I was going to be abnormal, I was terrified to see the results. Once I got them though they said I was normal on all but one scale. On the hypermania scale, which measures activity, i was low. This suggests fatigue or depression. Then last class we took the Strong Interest Inventory and my particular profile turned out "flat". I didn't exhibit any real interest in anything. The highest interest I had was average and the rest were low. I even noticed on another test that I very rarely say I strongly disagree or strongly agree with anything. I stay in the middle.
So I started to worry and I asked Dr. Chandler. She told me if it isn't broke don't fix it, if it works leave it alone so what if it's different. But it makes me wonder.
I wonder if the emotions I am not in touch with are the strong ones. Some of the questions on one of the tests were things like have you experienced overwhelming joy and I said no. I can think of an occasion now but it was once or twice. Lots of things like that stuck out to me. I don't know but I am concerned.
What do you think?
In other news we might lose Chocolate. No one asked Dana's brother if he was giving her up forever or not, we just assumed he was. He now says that his wife would like to bring Chocolate to Germany with them. We went to the vet today (everything was good, yay!) and found out that it is a lengthy, expensive, time-consuming process. Dana is going to get the info for him. I am going to wish that he doesn't have the money and we get to keep her forever. We will see.
I am upset by it because I didn't expect it. Dana assured me she was ours (because she didn't know he would want her back) and I got attached to her. Now we are treating it as a foster situation until we know more.
It wouldn't be bad if she went with them. They spoiled her and took good care of her so I'm not worried about that but I would miss her. I've gotten attached to her already.
I told Dana if we lose her we might have to get a cat or something.
We will see what happens.
Also I haven't been feeling well so my mom wants me to get checked for hyperglycemia/diabetes/allergies. She thinks one of them might be the cause of it. Gah lame. I hate doctors.
Come on weekend!!!!
Out.