Late Night Talk

[daddyzgrl]

Well here I am, knowing I have to get up for work early in the morning.. I cant seem to sleep and I have no one to talk to because everyone else is in bed

Comments

[daddyzgrl]

I know that.. But all of my life, I have always had what was second best.. I was always trying to catch up to played out styles, trying to dress like everyone else, trying to have what they had.. Even now as an adult, I keep taking what is first available.. It never meets my satisfactory.. Im not trying to let it define me, but how u live and where u live, says alot about you whether you want it to or not.. Even if i pretended to be blinded and not care, people are not going to be so nieve about it as well.. I am focusing on Kyleigh's birthday.. I feel bad that I am doing all of this just to please people, but I want them to come and enjoy themselves and wanna be there for her, i dont want them to come in and wanna leave right away because of my house.. ya know.. ?? I know u dont like ur house, but I would give anything, to have a house like that.. Isnt that crazy?? You cant wait to get out and I would love to get in.. thats how I feel.. Im a girl from kensington, and no matter how hard i try, I cant get out.. nothing ever works out like that for me.. I wish when I got this house that i would have waited just one more week, I would have been able to get a house so much better.. but i took what was first available..
But I agree.. I am going to just think about Kyleigh and I am just gonna try to make it as great as possible. what the frig.. Friggin Elmo is gonna be there. What the hell else is better than that?? lol

[dazzlingtara]

yeah whats better then elmo?lol but anyways I totally know what your saying i understand, but all im saying is that no one is better than you, i know your worring about your house, but try not to stress too much. living at your house is just your situation right now but i know your situation will change and you will improve whatever it is you want to improve. I know you will get out of kensington...

i know its really corny but im trying to be a positive person now and not always sooo depressed...