Late Night Talk

[daddyzgrl]

Well here I am, knowing I have to get up for work early in the morning.. I cant seem to sleep and I have no one to talk to because everyone else is in bed

Comments

[dazzlingtara]

amber, dont let your house define you seriously, its not like you HAVE to live there, I mean you have a good job, you aren't a bumb. Stop thinking about what other people are thinking, just worry about your family, I mean I think the same stuff sometimes, it seems like I always want something better or what I have isnt good enought but since I am a little older and wiser now, I really try not to be judgemental and I really dont care if other people judge me. All I need to worry about is me and my family, I mean if you think about it, these people (not all, most) in our neighborhood are trashy, they have no values, getting high and drinking all the time, not taking care of their kids, have to respect for themselves.

I don't think less of you cause of your house, I know you and chris aint slackers, i know that it is hard to move and i know you will move eventually, amber it takes time! just worry about kyleigh having a nice birthday, thats all that counts really.

[daddyzgrl]

I know that.. But all of my life, I have always had what was second best.. I was always trying to catch up to played out styles, trying to dress like everyone else, trying to have what they had.. Even now as an adult, I keep taking what is first available.. It never meets my satisfactory.. Im not trying to let it define me, but how u live and where u live, says alot about you whether you want it to or not.. Even if i pretended to be blinded and not care, people are not going to be so nieve about it as well.. I am focusing on Kyleigh's birthday.. I feel bad that I am doing all of this just to please people, but I want them to come and enjoy themselves and wanna be there for her, i dont want them to come in and wanna leave right away because of my house.. ya know.. ?? I know u dont like ur house, but I would give anything, to have a house like that.. Isnt that crazy?? You cant wait to get out and I would love to get in.. thats how I feel.. Im a girl from kensington, and no matter how hard i try, I cant get out.. nothing ever works out

[dazzlingtara]

yeah whats better then elmo?lol but anyways I totally know what your saying i understand, but all im saying is that no one is better than you, i know your worring about your house, but try not to stress too much. living at your house is just your situation right now but i know your situation will change and you will improve whatever it is you want to improve. I know you will get out of kensington...

i know its really corny but im trying to be a positive person now and not always sooo depressed...