ARGH
I'm so, so angry lately.
I lost a couple of people I thought were GREAT friends. They've floated away, not to Wonderland, but to the world of COMPLETE and total IMMATURITY. I mean I've been BLOCKED AND DELETED off of Facebook which only makes me LAUGH cos that's SO something I only thought my ex and her girlfriend do. It's a NETWORKING website! SERIOUSLY! WHO CARES IF I'M ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST?! Oh I'm sorry, it's so they can change their stupid fucking statuses to say shit about me, like "I'm so glad you're gone!" and "I hate adults that can't be adults!", the same thing you call OTHER people immature for doing!! Way to be hypocritical. ENJOY your stupid fucking status updates. I'm too fed up to care.
I'm just so angry at that WHOLE situation and the fucking knives that have been left in my back. It's all over such STUPID fucking BULLSHIT! Even in person, they're ridiculous. They've ENCOURAGED people to NOT talk to me or even LOOK at me, which is also incredibly fucking immature. They give me dirty looks when I'm not looking and when I DO look, they pretend I don't exist. I wouldn't be so upset if it was over something I actually did WRONG, but it's just them accusing me of shit AS USUAL and blowing EVERYTHING out of proportion!!! No, no I'm sorry... all of this is only stemming from ONE of them and the other is just following the first person's lead.
The fact that it's going to have an impact on SO many things makes me that much angrier. I bet I won't have a chance in HELL of fundraising for my top surgery. I can't even get a hold of a fucking form for it. Whatever, fuck it. I can't get my surgery ANYWAY! HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO SAVE MONEY?! I've been REMOVED from my lease, effective November 1st. REMOVED. WithOUT option. My dad's going to be SO fucking angry.
So now I'm going to be alone, cold, hungry and fucked-over 24/7, effective November 1st. If I don't get this job at the IWK, I might as well sell everything I have cos I won't be able to afford ANYTHING, ESPECIALLY not the $300 a month furniture bills.
I want to cry all the time. I'm so angry and sad and frustrated. I hate everything. EVERYTHING! Everything is SO fucked up for me all the time! WHEN THE FUCK AM I NOT IN SHIT?! Is there EVER a time something bad isn't happening in my life?!
I have a headache 24/7. Everything is just weighing on me all the time. I'm doing horribly in school. I can't focus! I have too much OTHER shit to worry about! I just don't CARE! At ALL! I want out. Away from everything. I need a fucking vacation. I really, really do. I kind of wanna go on a bender of some sort. I mean, I can't really get away LITERALLY. Why not be drunk all the time or something? Heh.
I'm talking bullshit now. I think I'm gonna go lay down.
I lost a couple of people I thought were GREAT friends. They've floated away, not to Wonderland, but to the world of COMPLETE and total IMMATURITY. I mean I've been BLOCKED AND DELETED off of Facebook which only makes me LAUGH cos that's SO something I only thought my ex and her girlfriend do. It's a NETWORKING website! SERIOUSLY! WHO CARES IF I'M ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST?! Oh I'm sorry, it's so they can change their stupid fucking statuses to say shit about me, like "I'm so glad you're gone!" and "I hate adults that can't be adults!", the same thing you call OTHER people immature for doing!! Way to be hypocritical. ENJOY your stupid fucking status updates. I'm too fed up to care.
I'm just so angry at that WHOLE situation and the fucking knives that have been left in my back. It's all over such STUPID fucking BULLSHIT! Even in person, they're ridiculous. They've ENCOURAGED people to NOT talk to me or even LOOK at me, which is also incredibly fucking immature. They give me dirty looks when I'm not looking and when I DO look, they pretend I don't exist. I wouldn't be so upset if it was over something I actually did WRONG, but it's just them accusing me of shit AS USUAL and blowing EVERYTHING out of proportion!!! No, no I'm sorry... all of this is only stemming from ONE of them and the other is just following the first person's lead.
The fact that it's going to have an impact on SO many things makes me that much angrier. I bet I won't have a chance in HELL of fundraising for my top surgery. I can't even get a hold of a fucking form for it. Whatever, fuck it. I can't get my surgery ANYWAY! HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO SAVE MONEY?! I've been REMOVED from my lease, effective November 1st. REMOVED. WithOUT option. My dad's going to be SO fucking angry.
So now I'm going to be alone, cold, hungry and fucked-over 24/7, effective November 1st. If I don't get this job at the IWK, I might as well sell everything I have cos I won't be able to afford ANYTHING, ESPECIALLY not the $300 a month furniture bills.
I want to cry all the time. I'm so angry and sad and frustrated. I hate everything. EVERYTHING! Everything is SO fucked up for me all the time! WHEN THE FUCK AM I NOT IN SHIT?! Is there EVER a time something bad isn't happening in my life?!
I have a headache 24/7. Everything is just weighing on me all the time. I'm doing horribly in school. I can't focus! I have too much OTHER shit to worry about! I just don't CARE! At ALL! I want out. Away from everything. I need a fucking vacation. I really, really do. I kind of wanna go on a bender of some sort. I mean, I can't really get away LITERALLY. Why not be drunk all the time or something? Heh.
I'm talking bullshit now. I think I'm gonna go lay down.