Clutch it like a cornerstone, otherwise it all comes down
First bad day in a long time. I'm talking long time like, since the end of last year. I'd been gliding so easily, and then something broke.
I inhabited some reality this summer that purified me, allowed me to perceive my surroundings so much differently. For the first time I could sit outside of it all, realizing the ultimate futility of agonizing over the unimportant. It was such an involved apathy.
Now things that I realize are ultimately unimportant, at least in my scheme of life as a whole, have become important again because I have re-entered society. I forgot, in the quiet reflectiveness of this summer, that at some point I'd have to go back.
Now I'm back, and today was hellish. The saddest part is that when I returned to my room and was ready to unload like I have in past years, I realized that my family is gone. I had become accustomed to the total silence this summer, to the point where just silence was fine. I didn't need the family, because I was used to being with just me. Now that I have to face the daily events that compose my life, I realize what a gaping hole their leaving has torn in my sense of existence at Hiram.
Oh, the life.
I inhabited some reality this summer that purified me, allowed me to perceive my surroundings so much differently. For the first time I could sit outside of it all, realizing the ultimate futility of agonizing over the unimportant. It was such an involved apathy.
Now things that I realize are ultimately unimportant, at least in my scheme of life as a whole, have become important again because I have re-entered society. I forgot, in the quiet reflectiveness of this summer, that at some point I'd have to go back.
Now I'm back, and today was hellish. The saddest part is that when I returned to my room and was ready to unload like I have in past years, I realized that my family is gone. I had become accustomed to the total silence this summer, to the point where just silence was fine. I didn't need the family, because I was used to being with just me. Now that I have to face the daily events that compose my life, I realize what a gaping hole their leaving has torn in my sense of existence at Hiram.
Oh, the life.