I ate the spine of Atlas now the world is crushing me...
Well, it seems to be about the time to restart the lj. I don't know why - maybe because it's 1AM and I have absolutely nothing better to do. Yep, sounds about right.
Life now is just a constant stream of events - I'm so damn busy I don't have any time to realize what I'm doing. I'm so involved, so responsible...shit, I've even started being friendly to people. I mean, I've always been nice...but I've had to become that toolish kind of nice that follows being in charge of so many things. That nice that makes you make concessions...that nice that I have to be that has forced me to change how I play the game. And I've never felt more apathetic. There's all this shit, and it just doesn't really mean anything. I'm just going through the motions.
I keep hoping that something will creep up to remind me why I keep on going - to remind me of the sweet things in life. For awhile I thought something had, now I'm not so sure. But, I know SOMETHING will pop up eventually.
Life now is just a constant stream of events - I'm so damn busy I don't have any time to realize what I'm doing. I'm so involved, so responsible...shit, I've even started being friendly to people. I mean, I've always been nice...but I've had to become that toolish kind of nice that follows being in charge of so many things. That nice that makes you make concessions...that nice that I have to be that has forced me to change how I play the game. And I've never felt more apathetic. There's all this shit, and it just doesn't really mean anything. I'm just going through the motions.
I keep hoping that something will creep up to remind me why I keep on going - to remind me of the sweet things in life. For awhile I thought something had, now I'm not so sure. But, I know SOMETHING will pop up eventually.