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Hi guys,
I'm writing, or i suppose i've started blogging because i feel completely alone.. and utterly disgusted at what i have became. I am fat, i looked in the mirror the evening, and eurgh stared with disgust at my hips. I've decided this is my last night as a fat person..
I want and will be thin. Beautifully thin, so thin my hips are beautiful nothing but a beautiful shape of skin stretched across a bone..
The plan is to burn 1000kcals a day, five or six days a week. I think i can do so by running 6 miles in the morning, on an empty stomache of course so i'm using storage fat instead of food energy.. and then cycle up to the gym/pool and burn 400 there. Hmm, i think if i put my mind to it. It'll be manageable. Afterall, i gotta lotta time on my hands ( just finished up uni for the summer).
Ok Current stats.Weight 9st 7lbs.
Height 5ft 6.
Pounds 133lbs
BMI 21.5
UK clothe size 10.
I aim to lose a stone and reach 8st 7lbs which is what? 119lbs.
Ok so maybe your wanting some personal info on me. Well i don't wanna disclose my name but er i'll give a few other things :-)
Well im a 17yr old female who is fed up of looking in the mirror and seeing something completely disgusting. Yes, some may argue this is a superficial view to be taking. I half/kinda agree i have a cousin who is severly physically disabled and i know i should be grateful. But he is honestly beautiful.. i'm awful.
I no longer have any best friends other than my mum.. but she doesn't know the extent of how much i need to be thin. I don't have a huge social life other than the sporting events i attend etc.. no guys seem attracted to me. And basically im fed up.
I've four months off from uni this summer. From my law course. I want to go back a completely different person. Also i gotta holiday in 5/6 weeks and i want to be as thin as for that.
Eating plan for next 4 days, (tues-friday)
Special K semi skinned milk. Breakfast 10'Oclock or later.
Slimfast shake with water. 1 O'Clock or later
Then dinner say any time from 5-6 about 600 kcals worth because im running in the morning.
Only thing is on Thursday im meeting up with a friend to go to the gym then for lunch and dinner. So i plan just to do my morning 6 mile run, then gym with her ( she ain't too fit) and maybe burn 300kcals at night. This should hopefully burn it off right?
Anyway guys, i just really need your support to get through this.. eurgh i'm more than happy to support you beautiful people honest just ask and i'll be there.
Love you all,
k. xxxxxxxxx
One day I will be thin enough.
Just the bones, no disfiguring flesh.
Just the pure, clean shape of me, bones.
That is what we all are, what we're made up of
everything else is just storage, deposit, waste.
Strip it away, use it up.
I do eat normally;
I eat only what is necessary for survival.
I can't help it that we live in a piggish society where gluttony is the norm,
and everyone else is constantly stuffing themselves.
I'm writing, or i suppose i've started blogging because i feel completely alone.. and utterly disgusted at what i have became. I am fat, i looked in the mirror the evening, and eurgh stared with disgust at my hips. I've decided this is my last night as a fat person..
I want and will be thin. Beautifully thin, so thin my hips are beautiful nothing but a beautiful shape of skin stretched across a bone..
The plan is to burn 1000kcals a day, five or six days a week. I think i can do so by running 6 miles in the morning, on an empty stomache of course so i'm using storage fat instead of food energy.. and then cycle up to the gym/pool and burn 400 there. Hmm, i think if i put my mind to it. It'll be manageable. Afterall, i gotta lotta time on my hands ( just finished up uni for the summer).
Ok Current stats.Weight 9st 7lbs.
Height 5ft 6.
Pounds 133lbs
BMI 21.5
UK clothe size 10.
I aim to lose a stone and reach 8st 7lbs which is what? 119lbs.
Ok so maybe your wanting some personal info on me. Well i don't wanna disclose my name but er i'll give a few other things :-)
Well im a 17yr old female who is fed up of looking in the mirror and seeing something completely disgusting. Yes, some may argue this is a superficial view to be taking. I half/kinda agree i have a cousin who is severly physically disabled and i know i should be grateful. But he is honestly beautiful.. i'm awful.
I no longer have any best friends other than my mum.. but she doesn't know the extent of how much i need to be thin. I don't have a huge social life other than the sporting events i attend etc.. no guys seem attracted to me. And basically im fed up.
I've four months off from uni this summer. From my law course. I want to go back a completely different person. Also i gotta holiday in 5/6 weeks and i want to be as thin as for that.
Eating plan for next 4 days, (tues-friday)
Special K semi skinned milk. Breakfast 10'Oclock or later.
Slimfast shake with water. 1 O'Clock or later
Then dinner say any time from 5-6 about 600 kcals worth because im running in the morning.
Only thing is on Thursday im meeting up with a friend to go to the gym then for lunch and dinner. So i plan just to do my morning 6 mile run, then gym with her ( she ain't too fit) and maybe burn 300kcals at night. This should hopefully burn it off right?
Anyway guys, i just really need your support to get through this.. eurgh i'm more than happy to support you beautiful people honest just ask and i'll be there.
Love you all,
k. xxxxxxxxx
One day I will be thin enough.
Just the bones, no disfiguring flesh.
Just the pure, clean shape of me, bones.
That is what we all are, what we're made up of
everything else is just storage, deposit, waste.
Strip it away, use it up.
I do eat normally;
I eat only what is necessary for survival.
I can't help it that we live in a piggish society where gluttony is the norm,
and everyone else is constantly stuffing themselves.