My Conversation with Johnnie
Well lets see, first of all I want to appologize to anyone who had the misfortune of talking to me last night. I was pretty drunk and it was for all the wrong reasons. I started it off by convincing myself it was to celebrate, but it ended up just being a way to hide. This is wrong. So very, very wrong.
My next point of order, why am I depressed. If I knew why I was depressed half the time I'd be able to fix it. Or at least that's what I'm hoping. I've found that I am an elitist, at least that's what I've gotten outta my friends. Why? I don't know. On that note I remain usually reclusive. It's not that I don't like people, it's just that I don't like people. Did you get that? Good. I'm a fucked up mother fucker. I don't like being alone, I loathe it, but for some reason I always spend my time alone. Despite me not liking it I do it because of my FUBAR work habits. Wether I work hard or work very little I always end up doing poorly. I'm a bad student. It's not that I'm a stupid person I'm just bad in school. That tends to wear on one after almost 4 years. I know I'll be great in the future and that I'm a good engineer, but I have to live in the now, and the now sucks!
I realize that this is all ranting and I don't feel like rereading it. Therefore you the reader must peice it together and get out of it what you may. Good luck.
Ciao for now.
Here's to better times.
My next point of order, why am I depressed. If I knew why I was depressed half the time I'd be able to fix it. Or at least that's what I'm hoping. I've found that I am an elitist, at least that's what I've gotten outta my friends. Why? I don't know. On that note I remain usually reclusive. It's not that I don't like people, it's just that I don't like people. Did you get that? Good. I'm a fucked up mother fucker. I don't like being alone, I loathe it, but for some reason I always spend my time alone. Despite me not liking it I do it because of my FUBAR work habits. Wether I work hard or work very little I always end up doing poorly. I'm a bad student. It's not that I'm a stupid person I'm just bad in school. That tends to wear on one after almost 4 years. I know I'll be great in the future and that I'm a good engineer, but I have to live in the now, and the now sucks!
I realize that this is all ranting and I don't feel like rereading it. Therefore you the reader must peice it together and get out of it what you may. Good luck.
Ciao for now.
Here's to better times.