For the Best...?
I broke it off with Kwan.
It was the hardest thing I've ever done...but I did it...so that he would be safe. I can't live with myself knowing that something like Faux can happen again and the next time...Kwan might end up like Freakshow ended up...maybe worse.
I don't know if I could handle that. Even if he DID come back as a ghost...I think...I just don't think I could handle that loss.
So it's for the best. Maybe I am being selfish or stupid or something...but I know that Kwan...he's better off without me. I mean...because of certain...THINGS involving me I can't be around him...I cause him pain and there is nothing I hate more than causing pain to others.
So I had to do it. I had to ALRIGHT!
*sigh* The worse thing is...I feel like I'm trying to convince myself that what I did was right.
I know it was! I couldn't protect him...I'll just hurt him...so it's for the best.
It was the hardest thing I've ever done...but I did it...so that he would be safe. I can't live with myself knowing that something like Faux can happen again and the next time...Kwan might end up like Freakshow ended up...maybe worse.
I don't know if I could handle that. Even if he DID come back as a ghost...I think...I just don't think I could handle that loss.
So it's for the best. Maybe I am being selfish or stupid or something...but I know that Kwan...he's better off without me. I mean...because of certain...THINGS involving me I can't be around him...I cause him pain and there is nothing I hate more than causing pain to others.
So I had to do it. I had to ALRIGHT!
*sigh* The worse thing is...I feel like I'm trying to convince myself that what I did was right.
I know it was! I couldn't protect him...I'll just hurt him...so it's for the best.