I Can Do This...Can't I?
Just got back from the funeral. Freakshow is a ghost now. So...Dan didn't loose him entirely.
But I still have my mind made up. I know I could never handle that...that pain...of loosing someone.
This has forced me to do something that I might regret...but I HAVE to do it. For HIS sake...and possibly my own. I guess now I just have to find out where he went off to.
And DON'T think I haven't thought about this. The throughts have been plaguing my head since I woke up a few days ago after Faux. I can't stand it anymore and I have to act on it.
There's no other way that I'll stay sane...I just...I'll hurt him more than anything if I stay with him.
Why does love have to be so damn hard?
But I still have my mind made up. I know I could never handle that...that pain...of loosing someone.
This has forced me to do something that I might regret...but I HAVE to do it. For HIS sake...and possibly my own. I guess now I just have to find out where he went off to.
And DON'T think I haven't thought about this. The throughts have been plaguing my head since I woke up a few days ago after Faux. I can't stand it anymore and I have to act on it.
There's no other way that I'll stay sane...I just...I'll hurt him more than anything if I stay with him.
Why does love have to be so damn hard?