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i got to typin on my typewriter the other day.
i had to retype some prayers from my king solomon candle.
i light the candle for wisdom and just didn't feel the connection to the prayer on the back.
it used god and servant.
and that just brought me back to a time in my life where being a servant...
meant i couldn't be me.
so my edited prayer mentions using my past lessons as my truth
and seeking a calm and peaceful mind to help me through out my days..
and my fingers just couldn't stop the clammer on the typewriter. and i've truly forgotten what its like to not stop with letting my thoughts out. i really have taken a step back from my creative outlet.
my camera broke and i have not sent it off to be fixed yet. and i kinda feel lost with out being able to document my adventures and surroundings.. but its also been nice to just sit back and let it all in.
wait who am i fooling. i feel like if i don't capture that moment on film i will forget it and it will be gone. and no one will be able to see the beauty in that second. see the amazing surroundings and people that fill my life.
i really need to send off my camera.
i'm trying to really find my ritual to do in life to let go of everything that just holds onto my body.
starring at candles helps, saying the words that will fill me with what i deserve and want in my life helps, reading about the stars, space and astrology helps and i feel a bit nerdy, a tad hippy like.... but ya know what i'm queer right. i'm all about redefining shit and making it fit my brain/hearts desires and connection.
so why not with this.
o and going on dates helps a lot to.
speaking of i need to finish the art for this mix cd and head to my date in the park.
peace.
i had to retype some prayers from my king solomon candle.
i light the candle for wisdom and just didn't feel the connection to the prayer on the back.
it used god and servant.
and that just brought me back to a time in my life where being a servant...
meant i couldn't be me.
so my edited prayer mentions using my past lessons as my truth
and seeking a calm and peaceful mind to help me through out my days..
and my fingers just couldn't stop the clammer on the typewriter. and i've truly forgotten what its like to not stop with letting my thoughts out. i really have taken a step back from my creative outlet.
my camera broke and i have not sent it off to be fixed yet. and i kinda feel lost with out being able to document my adventures and surroundings.. but its also been nice to just sit back and let it all in.
wait who am i fooling. i feel like if i don't capture that moment on film i will forget it and it will be gone. and no one will be able to see the beauty in that second. see the amazing surroundings and people that fill my life.
i really need to send off my camera.
i'm trying to really find my ritual to do in life to let go of everything that just holds onto my body.
starring at candles helps, saying the words that will fill me with what i deserve and want in my life helps, reading about the stars, space and astrology helps and i feel a bit nerdy, a tad hippy like.... but ya know what i'm queer right. i'm all about redefining shit and making it fit my brain/hearts desires and connection.
so why not with this.
o and going on dates helps a lot to.
speaking of i need to finish the art for this mix cd and head to my date in the park.
peace.