*sigh*
I'm so upset right now. You have NO idea.
Today's been awful. I just ...gahhh!!! I wanna rip my hair out.
Gramma has clogged the toilet. Naturally, dad's fed up with it already (it happens a LOT) and has decided he will not fix it this time. Which means we can't flush it, because it will overflow and flood the bathroom. Which is just gross.
The plane ticket's gone up in price -_- I was expecting to have to pay $1,500 for my ticket, but now I need at least $1,600 ...IF it doesn't go up again before I get the $1k from dad.
Oh, and telling dad that the price of the ticket's gone up has only served to infuriate him, which he took out on me. I ask you; who needs that?! It's not MY fault it went up!
I could have been making money all this time. But dad kept b***hing at me about getting hired "all the way out at THAT Wendy's" so I had to quit. Which, naturally, looks bad on ME because now it makes me look irresponsible. I still can't get a job because, oh, surprise! Nobody's hiring. STILL.
On top of all this, I feel extremely envious towards someone I'm friends with. Ever since I introduced her to other narrators, she's completely forgotten me and always, ALWAYS talks to them. Won't even say hello to me. I'm so fed up with her. I seriously just... gahhh! I think I'm going to just stop bothering. It's not like telling her how I feel will change anything. She'll say "oh, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to. Now I feel so horrible about it. I'm so sorry!" but she doesn't mean it. I genuinely regret introducing her to them. She just used me to get to the bigger narrators so she could try and get a free ride in narrating. She isn't even that good, but she gets them to whore out her videos so she gets massive views. It's so annoying.
People like her make me want to quit.
But what I'm mostly upset about is that I'm even more behind in the money I need to get my plane ticket.
Is it REALLY so much to ask for the prices to not be so ridiculously expensive? I just want to be able to see my boyfriend again. I want nothing else this year, just to see him.
I can't give up, but it's still very stressful and annoying. I just ....I don't know what to do.
I also really wish I had a real, in-person friend around here. I need to get away. To spend time NOT with family for once. I just can't take it >.< I'm not a "close-knit-family" kind of person. I hate being around them every day T_T
Lord, save me.
Today's been awful. I just ...gahhh!!! I wanna rip my hair out.
Gramma has clogged the toilet. Naturally, dad's fed up with it already (it happens a LOT) and has decided he will not fix it this time. Which means we can't flush it, because it will overflow and flood the bathroom. Which is just gross.
The plane ticket's gone up in price -_- I was expecting to have to pay $1,500 for my ticket, but now I need at least $1,600 ...IF it doesn't go up again before I get the $1k from dad.
Oh, and telling dad that the price of the ticket's gone up has only served to infuriate him, which he took out on me. I ask you; who needs that?! It's not MY fault it went up!
I could have been making money all this time. But dad kept b***hing at me about getting hired "all the way out at THAT Wendy's" so I had to quit. Which, naturally, looks bad on ME because now it makes me look irresponsible. I still can't get a job because, oh, surprise! Nobody's hiring. STILL.
On top of all this, I feel extremely envious towards someone I'm friends with. Ever since I introduced her to other narrators, she's completely forgotten me and always, ALWAYS talks to them. Won't even say hello to me. I'm so fed up with her. I seriously just... gahhh! I think I'm going to just stop bothering. It's not like telling her how I feel will change anything. She'll say "oh, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to. Now I feel so horrible about it. I'm so sorry!" but she doesn't mean it. I genuinely regret introducing her to them. She just used me to get to the bigger narrators so she could try and get a free ride in narrating. She isn't even that good, but she gets them to whore out her videos so she gets massive views. It's so annoying.
People like her make me want to quit.
But what I'm mostly upset about is that I'm even more behind in the money I need to get my plane ticket.
Is it REALLY so much to ask for the prices to not be so ridiculously expensive? I just want to be able to see my boyfriend again. I want nothing else this year, just to see him.
I can't give up, but it's still very stressful and annoying. I just ....I don't know what to do.
I also really wish I had a real, in-person friend around here. I need to get away. To spend time NOT with family for once. I just can't take it >.< I'm not a "close-knit-family" kind of person. I hate being around them every day T_T
Lord, save me.