Turning Point
Well, a lot has happened in the past couple of days (well more like the last week). I'm finally finished my second year of university and well, I can't be any happier about that. I don't have to worry about school or assignments or class or tests or exams until at least September. I've decided that I'll postpone taking any summer courses this summer because I really don't want to this year. lol. I guess that's a good enough reason (It's good enough for me!)
So, I've also decided that I'm going to pass on going to Terrace Bay for the summer and that I'm going to stay in Thunder Bay all year. It's going to be a long and lonely summer, but I'll manage. I'll enjoy the quietness of having my own place to call sanctuary (which is across the yard from Blockbuster! woot! P/S: No, that it not why I chose the apartment that I did). I made my first downpayment today and I'll have to sign the lease whenever they write it up, but other than that it's a done deal and I'll be moving into my own place soon enough! I'm really excited about it! I also start work on Monday (which will be hell-ish). I'm gonna have to go shopping for "business casual" clothes for my 5 weeks training period, because apparently business casual" is required while training, but not while working. I don't really understand that, but whatever. Point is still that I got the job, and that I had to turn down my job at the TIC in Terrace Bay (which'll probably make a couple people that worked there last summer and probably this summer quite happy--I get the feeling that they didn't want me back, lol. Bitches!) Oh well, that's in the past. I'm gonna be making about 9.50$/hr for the first five weeks and then I'll be making 11.00$/hr after 3 months of working. Not too shabby eh! (considering that I'd be making 8.25$/hr at the TIC in Terrace! lol.)
Anyway, I really don't have anymore news news than that. Tomorrow I'm going for my retinal surgeon appointment at 230pm with the parents. Yea, now that's about all the news that I have for now... however, I can still rant. lol.
So, I'm becoming increasingly skeptical of other people and the way that they act and what drives them to act certain ways. Like there are the few people around me that I KNOW dont have those selfish motives to better themselves by taking advantage of other people, but really, there are a lot of people in my world that are really in it for themselves and everything needs to be about them, and everything will always be about them being better or whatever. I'm noticing that more and more of the people around me are like this. Either that or I'm just increasingly cynicle about the people that I associate with (even though I wouldn't call associating with me a good thing in the least... I wouldn't associate with myself if I wasn't... me). Anyway, and then there are those people that are home and/or going home soon for the summer that I'm going to dearly miss and email as much as possible and try to keep in touch as well as possible while they are gone. And then there are the ones that I love, that I find myself loving more and more everyday and appreciating more everyday... but it's not a good feeling of increased love. It's almost like I'm having these insecurities about my life and about losing everything that I'm actually scared that I'm at a point where I might actually lose the people that I love the most. It's just random dreams and thoughts and insecurities that are making me withdraw. I don't know if it's stress from school or stress from moving to Thunder Bay that's putting me in a more vulnerable position, but I really don't know what's going on in my troubled little mind. Maybe a nap will help (or drinks... with my Heather)... or maybe my CJ and Medium night with Heather will cheer me up again and make me shake these insecure feelings.
Well that's about it. OH, no it's not. I might be going to Winnipeg still to get my first tattoo! I'm already budgeting the money that I'll make/spend in order to afford the trip and the tattoo! I'm excited about that too!
Stuck in rez until the 1st with the roommates (who are oddly nice to me now! woo!),
Stuck in Thunder Bay indefinately (which has its pluses and minuses)
TTY Soonish, Dave.