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i've been feeling indifferent about the important people in my life and i really don't know what it is. i feel like my mind is so cluttered with old problems leaving me feel apathetic about everything. its like i can't get excited about anything or have fun. i really just wanna be 18 years old and not care about little things, and think so much about i don't even know what, like everyone else in this fucking world. i don't know whats worse being naive and enjoying life or knowing it all and being miserable. i know i don't 'know it all' and maybe thats part of the problem that im so stubborn to learn new things and be open. i used to just go with the flow and chill with everyone and not talk much. but now i speak my mind too much and keep my distance. its like i've lost everyone i used to have fun with. i miss high school. and i miss my best friend. i don't think anyone misses me. and that truly sucks.