An Update Just Feels Right
well... here it is, 12:20 Weds morning, I have an econ exam in 10 hours and 40 minutes, but I don't feel like sleeping... but studying doesn't feel right either. So, I will just sit here and type in my LJ, whatever comes out... I will start out by saying that I hate guys that think they are fucking pimps, but are dumb as bricks, not trying to mention any names, but there is atleast one in specific that I can think of. I also hate seeing all the damn drama between my friends. There is really no sense in 80-90% of the drama that goes on between my friends, and even if it is just between 2 of us, we all suffer from it. While I think it was good for some of us to go off to college this year, I wish the summer would produce desirable results, though I HARDLY believe it actually will. Ideally, when summer arrives, and everyone is home, people will take into account the real value of their friends here, and see that most of our friendship will only last for a short period of time, and spend more time just being happy and having a good time, rather than finding a reason to bitch and moan about what he/she did to you. The extreme ammounts of drama, and just ignorant bitchyness are what has driven Jackson, and myself to some extent, to seek other friends. Our little group of IB '04 could never get it together. We could never properly coexist and just have a good time. There was always some drama going on, or someone thinking that someone else didn't like you because of this or that... and in retrospect, such problems really ruined my high school career. So now all I can do is look forward to the future and pray that we will get it right somewhere in the near future. I love my friends, I really do, but being everyone's friend has become more of a chore than an delight. Listening to everyone's double-talk, and everyone's multiple faces, it just really bothers me. I know I haven't exactly been flawless about these things either, and don't think that I am saying that I have, I am just pointing out the facts. None of my other groups of friends have had troubles like the one in question. atleast, not to this degree. The neighborhood folks have all gone our seperate ways, but we are still fully able to coexist. The youth-group isn't as much a group of friends as it is a group of people with a common interest in God, so I am not going to call that a group of friends, because there is definantly constant drama in that area. My Country Day friends, though I am not really that involved with them, I don't really see nearly as much drama there as with my Johnson friends. Granted, there is drama to some degree (primarily dealing with "THE PROJECT" and related issues) but that is about all I see. With my Johnson friends though, it is constant, be it, Steph nearly beating the hell outta Molly in history, Liz getting pissy at Megan for something she said, Or just Tina's general outspokeness pissing someone off, there is always SOMETHING going on. Note that all of the above examples are between pairs of females, this isn't to say that there was never any drama between the guys, it was just ALOT less prevalent. Normally, if a guy was involved, it was because he was dragged into it by a girl. Or it was between Jax and Molly regarding Megan... though I think they have come to realise now that they both only want what's best for her, and see that they just had 2 different views of 'the best thing' at the time... but now I am pretty sure they generally agree. I have to praise Jake once again here though, I love that kid, and I can never think of him having gotten himself involved in any of our seemingly class-wide spats. +1 cool point for Jake, -1 cool point to pretty much everyone else for sticking their nose where it doesn't belong. Okay... I have run out of things to write, I will be back later with more rants.... and they will probably essentially be saying the same thing, but oh well... we'll see. Love you guys, g'night