no matter how hard i try, i cannot break free.
ahhh...
i still don/t have the internet in the apartment yet. fucking shoot me.
we don/t have cable either, which i really didn/t want in the first place, but i think i/m slowly going crazy without it.
i feel so stupid.
and who knows when we/ll be able to afford it.
i recently got two jobs; i got my job at the photolab [thank god], and tom and i both got hired at auntie anne's in the mall.
i don/t really want to be working there, although i am certain that it will be a very laid back work environment, as the manager is a twenty-five year old with long gnarly blonde dreads. she is definately the shiottt. she will also be attending bonnaroo this year, so me and tom will most likely be partying with her. bahahhaha.
lastly,
before stephanie moved away to florida, not only did she ignore me [her "best friend"] for a month, but her and i got into a bad argument regarding alot of my stuff that she had to give back to me before she left.
to make a long story short, she never gave me my stuff back, moved away, and managed to find it fit to call me a "fucking bitch."
i wish that i didn/t miss her; she doesn/t deserve any of my time what-so-ever after what she did to me, but for some reason i still miss her so much.
today is her twenty-first birthday and such a big part of me wants to be the better person and text or call her and wish her a happy birthday anyways, but i can/t really bring myself to do that, because in all honesty, i hope she has a horrible day.
i know that sounds wretched, but i/m not going to lie.
right now, i am sitting in the mvcc computer lab;
i am hurting
i am lonely
i want an unlimited supply of lsd and happiness
i have nothing to write about [because i suck at life]
and listening to my ipod makes me want to sing so bad >:0
who knows when i/ll get a chance to update next.
not like anyone cares...
peace and love, brothers and sisters <3
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