relationships = heart break
well i`m assuming that me and eric are broken up but someone needs to "officially" do it. i heard so much that i didn`t wanna hear today. i`m sick of taking other people`s advice. i`m gonna handle this one on my own. he`s on right now, but he`s showering. i have an away message up that reads:
I'm gonna be strong and forget about how weak I was before. I can't let this get to me. I'm strong and I know I can get through it. I'm here in front of the computer listenin ta some music venting in my journal. IM me if you wanna talk to me.. *hint hint to U*
-brittney
i know he`s not gonna IM me. i`m not even going to get my hopes up that he will. he never responded to me letter that i wrote him, which i think shows that he doesn`t care. i told him exactly how i felt about it, i asked for a reply, and got nothing. i talked to his sister stephanie today. i IMed her to ask her if he was home because i wanted to call him to talk thinkg over and decide what i wanted to do. she asked me if everything was okay and i told her it wasnt. she told me she knows that he still cares about me but, like he would tell his sister that. i`m sure she was trying to make me feel better. i heard from a few people that he doesn`t care at all anymore. and if thats the case, then what can i do? i also started thinking maybe he`s not talking to me thinking i will get the hint that he doesn`t wanna talk to me. all i know is whatever the outcome of our relationship is, i still wanna be friends with him. it`s hard as hell but he`s an amazing person who i love so much as a friend. i don`t wanna lose someone like that.
i just got done crying because i am listening to jagged edge *all out of love* and the lyrics remind me of us so much. its like "please love me or i`ll be gone" thats all i am asking from him, to care about me, and if he doesn`t then i`ll be done with him. after i cried i told myself that i need to be strong, i need to stop being so stupid about it. if he doesn`t care anymore as noelle said "hes missing out on getting to know a great amazing person." she told me that he`s stupid for letting someone as great as me slip away from him. she told me that as one of her best friends no one should treat me like that and i deserve better. the thing is.. i thought he was the best it could get. i had a good feeling about us, and so did my mom. i guess we both were wrong. i`m gonna be a fighter and overcome all of this. i know i can do it.
on a lighter note. i had polish dance from 6 til about 8:30. we looked for pictures of mr. allen for the first like 45 minutes. then we danced. i must say i am going to look like a complete ass tomorow. i wish eric would be there to see me, but yeah he "doesn`t care" the festival is gonna be so hard this year. we suffered such a great loss once mr allen passed. he`s gonna be missed do much.
i`m sick of venting and i`m so sorry i probably filled up your friends page ;x
I'm gonna be strong and forget about how weak I was before. I can't let this get to me. I'm strong and I know I can get through it. I'm here in front of the computer listenin ta some music venting in my journal. IM me if you wanna talk to me.. *hint hint to U*
-brittney
i know he`s not gonna IM me. i`m not even going to get my hopes up that he will. he never responded to me letter that i wrote him, which i think shows that he doesn`t care. i told him exactly how i felt about it, i asked for a reply, and got nothing. i talked to his sister stephanie today. i IMed her to ask her if he was home because i wanted to call him to talk thinkg over and decide what i wanted to do. she asked me if everything was okay and i told her it wasnt. she told me she knows that he still cares about me but, like he would tell his sister that. i`m sure she was trying to make me feel better. i heard from a few people that he doesn`t care at all anymore. and if thats the case, then what can i do? i also started thinking maybe he`s not talking to me thinking i will get the hint that he doesn`t wanna talk to me. all i know is whatever the outcome of our relationship is, i still wanna be friends with him. it`s hard as hell but he`s an amazing person who i love so much as a friend. i don`t wanna lose someone like that.
i just got done crying because i am listening to jagged edge *all out of love* and the lyrics remind me of us so much. its like "please love me or i`ll be gone" thats all i am asking from him, to care about me, and if he doesn`t then i`ll be done with him. after i cried i told myself that i need to be strong, i need to stop being so stupid about it. if he doesn`t care anymore as noelle said "hes missing out on getting to know a great amazing person." she told me that he`s stupid for letting someone as great as me slip away from him. she told me that as one of her best friends no one should treat me like that and i deserve better. the thing is.. i thought he was the best it could get. i had a good feeling about us, and so did my mom. i guess we both were wrong. i`m gonna be a fighter and overcome all of this. i know i can do it.
on a lighter note. i had polish dance from 6 til about 8:30. we looked for pictures of mr. allen for the first like 45 minutes. then we danced. i must say i am going to look like a complete ass tomorow. i wish eric would be there to see me, but yeah he "doesn`t care" the festival is gonna be so hard this year. we suffered such a great loss once mr allen passed. he`s gonna be missed do much.
i`m sick of venting and i`m so sorry i probably filled up your friends page ;x