A longish post (~1100 words) re: the state of me and of this journal. I'm summarizing outside the cut so you know the gist of it, because it's something you should know going forward, especially if we're just fandom friends.
Basically: This journal has never much been about my life, but I want it to be. And I want to interact more with you
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*big hugs*
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*squishes you*
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I know we've never interacted much before, in fandom or otherwise, but feel free to come over to my LJ whenever you want. I'm always happy to get to know people.
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But I can totally see how it could work the other way. Depression drives you into yourself, and coming out of it gives you the mental space to pay attention to other things. I'm hoping that logic means I'll eventually get back to writing myself -- when I'm not terrified it's a coping mechanism, a sign something's wrong.
Thanks for replying to such a lengthy, personal post. I hope we'll be crossing paths more often. :)
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I will tell you, though: Diverging interests or not, I've always considered you to be intelligent and well spoken and admired the fact that you really thought things out; that you tried to pick characters apart and wrote about it. Maybe working through things that way isn't the most terrible thing -- but I'm happy that you feel able to center more on yourself.
Anyways. I made it through bandom with you, so you know this isn't gonna drive me away. <3
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(And that's all I'm gonna say, because all that stuff you wrote about me? Makes me blush. ♥)
Ahaha, yes, the dreaded bandom plague. Which is not at all over, btw, lol. You are, indeed, a brave one. ;)
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I'm just the opposite - way more open on LJ!
Interesting about your desire to write having gone away now that you are dealing with your depression and anxiety. Of course, I haven't read much of your fic since you got into bandom, so I suppose that makes it a bit easier to accept selfishly that there won't be more of it. That's okay - it's better that you're happy and healthy, you know? Originally I friended you for your fic (God, that seems like a long time ago!), but that's not the reason I'm still here.
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You are, indeed, just the opposite. The first time we met, I was so surprised! I like both your online and real life selves.
Ah, me and my silly bandom. I figure if you've stuck with me through squeeing over tiny people in eyeliner, you're in it for the long haul. :)
I think I'm going to take a page from your book and try my hand at reccing. It would give me some impetus to read more. What are you reading these days?
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I wish I could merge my LJ and RL selves - being shy in RL sucks. Idk why I'm not shy online, but I'm not, really.
Oh well, I figure bandom isn't any sillier than any other fandom. It's not for me, but who am I to judge?
These days I'm mostly reading SPN fic (various pairings) and Holmes 09 fic. I also read White Collar and very occasionally Lost and the rare RPS fic, if something catches my attention. I've gotten more and more picky about what I read though, which makes it difficult to find fic I like.
You should give reccing a try. I find it a nice way to spread the love and to promote the good stuff that's out there. Plus, if you're not going to be writing, it would be a way to stay connected to fandom - if that's what you want.
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I was going to watch White Collar, but by the time I caught up to it on Hulu, the first couple of episodes had already trailed off. But it's on my list for the future. I was reading Holmes right after the movie came out, but I've let that fandom fall by the wayside like I always do with fandoms that aren't for ongoing canon (I have the same problem with Harry Potter and American Idol Adam/Kris). Gotta get my ass back into Holmes/Watson, because it's awesomely hot!
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