Dec 20, 2011 17:00
So I've thrown my hat into the ring again to attempt the excruciation that is dating. I don't feel like I'm good at it at all and I don't think I want to be either. Or maybe I do. Maybe being better at dating means it won't feel so icky and confusing or it's a plot by nature to make one move forward into relationships. All I know is that so far is that I like watching from the sidelines.
I've narrowed down my places to look. After placing a 4 line ad on Craigslist and being inunduated with responses I've figured out that dragnetting will get you a lot of bottomfeeders. Among other things I recieved 18 different pictures of guys holding big, dead fish. So that's not working out so well and that route is out.
I have a profile on OKCupid. I blow through time on there like it's Ebay and then realize that I already know some of these guys and the match software is wrong wrong wrong or that the guys I look at are fabulous human beings and I'm too boring to go out with them. I'll continue to lurk but I think the chances for me there are slim there too. I'd have to stop being 14 and from Seattle and actually, oh, write someone. Nah, that's out.
I tried the local poly meetup. Some potential and I met someone but. . .meh. Maybe I should do it more than 1-2 times a year. So that's still in process.
I tried the CSPC and met someone. He's nice. I'm conflicted. Dating is hard. Why won't the perfect guy just parachute into my life? ./cry
It's not all bad. I've tried out some new restaurants and I have loads of pictures of dead fish being held by guys.