Apologies to Frank Herbert
derekbbell and I were talking about this, and I think it deserved a post.
For both of us, Fear is not what paralyzes us. It is anger, and rage. Our lives have been made up of moments of anger management strung together in a network of anecdotal wisdom of how *not* to handle things. Mine have been moments of fury that burn holes into other people's impression of me. Derek's flip on and off so fast one doesn't quite know what happened until after the fact. I have spent spent months cleaning up the emotional debris laid out from a moment of losing control.
Some might remember my status as "Most Violent Female" of the senior class.
My coworkers think I am SO mellow too. Nothing shakes me, and cool as a cucumber.
I tell them either "it's all smoke and mirrors" or "that's because The Program works"
Charlotte's Litany Against Fear Anger
I must not fear anger.
Fear Anger is the mind-killer.
Fear Anger is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear anger.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear anger has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain.
One could argue that anger and fear are two sides of the same coin. I believe that SOME anger and Some fear are, yes. Fight or Flight scenarios, anger that defends, yes. That is usually not the case for me.
I set fire to people's hair using only the power of my mind. Then, as nicely as I can muster, say "Really?"
Only I will remain.
For both of us, Fear is not what paralyzes us. It is anger, and rage. Our lives have been made up of moments of anger management strung together in a network of anecdotal wisdom of how *not* to handle things. Mine have been moments of fury that burn holes into other people's impression of me. Derek's flip on and off so fast one doesn't quite know what happened until after the fact. I have spent spent months cleaning up the emotional debris laid out from a moment of losing control.
Some might remember my status as "Most Violent Female" of the senior class.
My coworkers think I am SO mellow too. Nothing shakes me, and cool as a cucumber.
I tell them either "it's all smoke and mirrors" or "that's because The Program works"
Charlotte's Litany Against Fear Anger
I must not fear anger.
Fear Anger is the mind-killer.
Fear Anger is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear anger.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear anger has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain.
One could argue that anger and fear are two sides of the same coin. I believe that SOME anger and Some fear are, yes. Fight or Flight scenarios, anger that defends, yes. That is usually not the case for me.
I set fire to people's hair using only the power of my mind. Then, as nicely as I can muster, say "Really?"
Only I will remain.