so..ok
A moment has passed. This is where I find out where the regret lies. I still can't tell.
Ths tone had changed in the conversation following the email and this stung a little. I dont;' know why. I think maybe its because I liked being cared about in the way that she did for me but I can't take what I can't give and I understand why she said what she said and why she needed to say it. I need to sleep. I will miss things-no doubt. But she needed my input- it was up to me because she knows how she feels. And I need to be pushed to say what I feel and I am underdeveloped.
I feel sad saying that. oh well.
She deserves someone so great and I am so glad she knows that now. She has such an understanding of her emotions and what she needs to do right now.
I hope she can still open up to me.
I hope all these thoughts reach her somehow because she does not read my journal.
"I do have to tell you once last time "I love you!""
This made me cry and I don't know why.
I can never reach the things I want in emotional immaturity.
But I don't know what I want
Ths tone had changed in the conversation following the email and this stung a little. I dont;' know why. I think maybe its because I liked being cared about in the way that she did for me but I can't take what I can't give and I understand why she said what she said and why she needed to say it. I need to sleep. I will miss things-no doubt. But she needed my input- it was up to me because she knows how she feels. And I need to be pushed to say what I feel and I am underdeveloped.
I feel sad saying that. oh well.
She deserves someone so great and I am so glad she knows that now. She has such an understanding of her emotions and what she needs to do right now.
I hope she can still open up to me.
I hope all these thoughts reach her somehow because she does not read my journal.
"I do have to tell you once last time "I love you!""
This made me cry and I don't know why.
I can never reach the things I want in emotional immaturity.
But I don't know what I want