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I don't like pretending things. I'd rather just try to make my reality good. But reality doesn't want to cooperate with me.
I hate just waiting around but I feel like it's my best option. I feel like I'm in that same waiting around period that haunted me for the majority of my four years in high school. The right one will come to just go anyways. I'd rather have whatever now. I still envy those people that always have their whatever. I like the not worrying I'm cool phase.
I really don't like pretending things but I just gotta pretend I'm cool about life as I've always been. It got me what I thought I wanted in the first place anyways. I lost it but I lost my cool first. Gotta keep it gotta keep it. I feel like a lot of us are just relating right now. I kind of feel bad for people that haven't dealt with a bad hand before because when they get theirs they won't know how to take it. It's just a game and you gotta wait. I'm a pro, come to me if you need my advice.
Note: life will suck at one point so deal with it. If it sucks at most point then be proud that you've been able to take it most of your life. You probably will get what you want in the end but if not you can live with that false hope and it's probably enough to keep you going.
All I know is I can be the best thing ever. At least to someone. Maybe if I'm lucky I can be that to many people. It's a good feeling. The more the merrier so I should probably shoot for that. It's been my style. It is hard though to keep your cool while hoping that everything will turn out alright in the end. It's hard for me. I like knowing what's in store. I like knowing that my hard work won't leave me with flaw. I really write in this thing too much and I need to get out more but I just want something real to get out to.
I'm not really trying to hold on to the past, I just know what it would take right now to make the present the best way it could be. I had my past and I had my memories and I wouldn't change a thing. And there was a point where I could admit that I was so happy that I had to go through all the bad I had to to get there. I can't wait til the next time I can have this reflection. I just want something real again.
I hate just waiting around but I feel like it's my best option. I feel like I'm in that same waiting around period that haunted me for the majority of my four years in high school. The right one will come to just go anyways. I'd rather have whatever now. I still envy those people that always have their whatever. I like the not worrying I'm cool phase.
I really don't like pretending things but I just gotta pretend I'm cool about life as I've always been. It got me what I thought I wanted in the first place anyways. I lost it but I lost my cool first. Gotta keep it gotta keep it. I feel like a lot of us are just relating right now. I kind of feel bad for people that haven't dealt with a bad hand before because when they get theirs they won't know how to take it. It's just a game and you gotta wait. I'm a pro, come to me if you need my advice.
Note: life will suck at one point so deal with it. If it sucks at most point then be proud that you've been able to take it most of your life. You probably will get what you want in the end but if not you can live with that false hope and it's probably enough to keep you going.
All I know is I can be the best thing ever. At least to someone. Maybe if I'm lucky I can be that to many people. It's a good feeling. The more the merrier so I should probably shoot for that. It's been my style. It is hard though to keep your cool while hoping that everything will turn out alright in the end. It's hard for me. I like knowing what's in store. I like knowing that my hard work won't leave me with flaw. I really write in this thing too much and I need to get out more but I just want something real to get out to.
I'm not really trying to hold on to the past, I just know what it would take right now to make the present the best way it could be. I had my past and I had my memories and I wouldn't change a thing. And there was a point where I could admit that I was so happy that I had to go through all the bad I had to to get there. I can't wait til the next time I can have this reflection. I just want something real again.