nightmare

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OK. Its been a long time since I cared enough to do this kind of entry. I was sleeping over at my dad's although this house wasn't his. My dad was sleeping with me and in some way asked me to sleep with him. At first I didn't say anything. With my silence which I guess he took for thinking he placed his hand on the inside of my upper thigh very close to my crotch. Then as I began to say no put my ear in his mouth. At this point I started saying "No" very loudly and just repeating NO NO NO over and over again sometimes saying Daddy Please NO. He got out of bed and said he wouldn't rape me but asked why I didn't want to. Which is weird bc Dario sometimes uses that. I couldn't answer but kept saying No No No. I guess I was making a rucuss bc some lady I have never seen before came in to the room. She had no idea what was going on but tried to hush me. Im trying to remember what she looked like and I can't she had dark hair and round glasses with a black/blueish tint. My dad left the room with her. Outside the room was another bedroom. In that bedroom was Moises my cousin Alex's brother in law. I don't know if he knew but I felt awkward and tried to lock my door anyway. I couldn't lock was broken. I think it was early in the morning though because Moises came into the room to get clothing maybe for work. I understood this and tried to cover myself up. For some reason I was sleeping in a robe! I don't even own a robe! Umm thats the end of the dream I think.

Oh but I have never in real life felt this kind of attraction from my father. Maybe its because Im studying for the NCLEX or something and finished a chapter on abusive parents.