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too much to say, so im going to list it all.
- im volunteering at a conservatory in my city where i can run through a forest and plant seeds and feed birds and be alone with nature. i may not be entirely alone, my boyfriend had the idea of volunteering, so i'll get to be with him. in winter i can't think of anything more romantic really then the snowy tree's and him and me and the seeds. But there's a lot more to it then that and I am just way more excited about it then i should be. I really want to garden and be an old lady. i want to lead hikes and plant flowers.
- Karen at work, in case you don't know, is a hardcore christian and today she called me the devil for being a non-believer. she said there is a little devil inside of me, making me not believe in god. and he has me right in the palm of his hand, and he's telling me to try to convert others. the funny thing is, I have never tried to convert someone, i may not agree with them but i try very damn hard to respect their beliefs and i have never understood why its so wrong for them to respect mine. I get that she believes every word in the bible… I've talked to her about it only to piss her off when i didn't mean to. she was surprised by how knowledgeable i was about it. knowing the 10 commandments when she couldn't hardly regurgitate them. truthfully i felt so sorry for her. i laughed really hard and she told me that it was the devil inside me laughing. i told her that if i believed i would be very offended, and that im aware she censored her true feelings by her choice in words. she told me it was too rude to go on any further and then the phone rang and interrupted us. what hurt was how hard to do try to go out of my way and help other people i work with. but she doesn't see that. it hurts because she doesn't feel im in control of my own flesh and bones… some devil is… its so stupid. she then went on to the topic of fear and how us non-believers are going to burn in hell. Whats even worse to me is that when Juliana spoke about her religion (i forget the name of it… Bahai? something like that) and it was the first time either of us has heard of it… i was very interested and Karen told Juliana not to talk to me about it. not to teach me about it… even though i have a general curiosity that Karen pointed out is a sign the light of god is trying to shine through but the devil is stopping it. I don't want her to think this of me… because its pure bullshit. no devil and god are raging inside me. AND karen laughed at J's religion every time she told us something about it, even tho it sounded a hell of a lot better then christianity. yeah. a HELL of a lot better. oh shit must be the devil.
- I bought a plane ticket to the Bahama's and im leaving near the end of January with Jen. we are going to be staying at a family friends house who lives there a few months of the year. hes retired, so he'll be there to greet us, give us his car, and then say bye-bye while we have his house. He lives on Grand Bahama Island, in Freeport, which is conveniently close to the international airport and the beach. having his car will be so nice too. i cant wait for the snowy winter to hit me here in canada then fly out to a tropical paradise. he lives in a rich area where a lot of people go to retire and its right next to a country club so it will be full of rich people. this is good for us because a lot of the time touristy areas are surrounded by poverty and theres always a chance go it being… dangerous… getting jumped and stuff. i never think like that though, but its something Jen told me that i was happy to hear. I wish samer could come, but i know that we can always go back next year if its really nice… plus the guy rents super cheap+car+his house. did i mention he's rich and owns hotels? yaaaaaay va-cay. PLUS my work just got vacay pay for part-time employee's :D
- I joined a new guild in WoW and im SUPER excited to be a big nerd and get lots of loot. I was just talking to someone in chat when he invited me to his guild and then ran me through SM twice so i could get XP and he said everyone in his guild is very friendly and willing to help out low lvl's. YAYYYY i love WoW in the winter. its fantasy world takes me away from the snow and sadness i feel when the seasons change. its super social and its a really great conversation started, you'd be surprised how many guys at my work play. I wish S<3 would play but he's hopped up with work, "school", and CoD2…. I sorta am interested in a few xbox games that have come out/are about it but somehow my subscription to xbox live was cancelled??? wahh !! i have to remember to look into this….
-Tomorrow night is Kristen's Bday.. we're going to Body english (again) to celebrate. GIRLS only! huh yay S was happy to hear that. no bf's allowed :P + hotel after party. K warned me she was going to get drunk… apparently we haven't seen her drunk yet? lol im not sure what she means… but it should be an interesting night… shit…. what am i going to wear? my hair? my nails!! the disastrous glue and fake nails i tried on… what a mess… i wish i knew how to wear fake lashes. its the glue.. .it never works. SO happy Jen is going too!! because i don't know anyone else!!
- yesterday Samer, his sisterm and I had some drinks and inflated helium balloons for one of his sisters photography assignments. we tied them to strings and there were 30 or so. her picture was reminiscent of the poster for Up. 30 colorful floating Balloons and "eating" helium make me way to happy. and listing to S sing Fire Burning is way too funny.
oh yah!! watch this!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=52UAEQfMTtU
- im volunteering at a conservatory in my city where i can run through a forest and plant seeds and feed birds and be alone with nature. i may not be entirely alone, my boyfriend had the idea of volunteering, so i'll get to be with him. in winter i can't think of anything more romantic really then the snowy tree's and him and me and the seeds. But there's a lot more to it then that and I am just way more excited about it then i should be. I really want to garden and be an old lady. i want to lead hikes and plant flowers.
- Karen at work, in case you don't know, is a hardcore christian and today she called me the devil for being a non-believer. she said there is a little devil inside of me, making me not believe in god. and he has me right in the palm of his hand, and he's telling me to try to convert others. the funny thing is, I have never tried to convert someone, i may not agree with them but i try very damn hard to respect their beliefs and i have never understood why its so wrong for them to respect mine. I get that she believes every word in the bible… I've talked to her about it only to piss her off when i didn't mean to. she was surprised by how knowledgeable i was about it. knowing the 10 commandments when she couldn't hardly regurgitate them. truthfully i felt so sorry for her. i laughed really hard and she told me that it was the devil inside me laughing. i told her that if i believed i would be very offended, and that im aware she censored her true feelings by her choice in words. she told me it was too rude to go on any further and then the phone rang and interrupted us. what hurt was how hard to do try to go out of my way and help other people i work with. but she doesn't see that. it hurts because she doesn't feel im in control of my own flesh and bones… some devil is… its so stupid. she then went on to the topic of fear and how us non-believers are going to burn in hell. Whats even worse to me is that when Juliana spoke about her religion (i forget the name of it… Bahai? something like that) and it was the first time either of us has heard of it… i was very interested and Karen told Juliana not to talk to me about it. not to teach me about it… even though i have a general curiosity that Karen pointed out is a sign the light of god is trying to shine through but the devil is stopping it. I don't want her to think this of me… because its pure bullshit. no devil and god are raging inside me. AND karen laughed at J's religion every time she told us something about it, even tho it sounded a hell of a lot better then christianity. yeah. a HELL of a lot better. oh shit must be the devil.
- I bought a plane ticket to the Bahama's and im leaving near the end of January with Jen. we are going to be staying at a family friends house who lives there a few months of the year. hes retired, so he'll be there to greet us, give us his car, and then say bye-bye while we have his house. He lives on Grand Bahama Island, in Freeport, which is conveniently close to the international airport and the beach. having his car will be so nice too. i cant wait for the snowy winter to hit me here in canada then fly out to a tropical paradise. he lives in a rich area where a lot of people go to retire and its right next to a country club so it will be full of rich people. this is good for us because a lot of the time touristy areas are surrounded by poverty and theres always a chance go it being… dangerous… getting jumped and stuff. i never think like that though, but its something Jen told me that i was happy to hear. I wish samer could come, but i know that we can always go back next year if its really nice… plus the guy rents super cheap+car+his house. did i mention he's rich and owns hotels? yaaaaaay va-cay. PLUS my work just got vacay pay for part-time employee's :D
- I joined a new guild in WoW and im SUPER excited to be a big nerd and get lots of loot. I was just talking to someone in chat when he invited me to his guild and then ran me through SM twice so i could get XP and he said everyone in his guild is very friendly and willing to help out low lvl's. YAYYYY i love WoW in the winter. its fantasy world takes me away from the snow and sadness i feel when the seasons change. its super social and its a really great conversation started, you'd be surprised how many guys at my work play. I wish S<3 would play but he's hopped up with work, "school", and CoD2…. I sorta am interested in a few xbox games that have come out/are about it but somehow my subscription to xbox live was cancelled??? wahh !! i have to remember to look into this….
-Tomorrow night is Kristen's Bday.. we're going to Body english (again) to celebrate. GIRLS only! huh yay S was happy to hear that. no bf's allowed :P + hotel after party. K warned me she was going to get drunk… apparently we haven't seen her drunk yet? lol im not sure what she means… but it should be an interesting night… shit…. what am i going to wear? my hair? my nails!! the disastrous glue and fake nails i tried on… what a mess… i wish i knew how to wear fake lashes. its the glue.. .it never works. SO happy Jen is going too!! because i don't know anyone else!!
- yesterday Samer, his sisterm and I had some drinks and inflated helium balloons for one of his sisters photography assignments. we tied them to strings and there were 30 or so. her picture was reminiscent of the poster for Up. 30 colorful floating Balloons and "eating" helium make me way to happy. and listing to S sing Fire Burning is way too funny.
oh yah!! watch this!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=52UAEQfMTtU