Ok, so I've been thinking about it...
And I don't have a crush on you, I have a crush on the crush on you. I have a crush on the crush you had on me, or at least thought you did, because you didn't. It's not that I don't like you, you're cool and all, but I don't think that's it. Interacting with you triggers hormones that I'm addicted to, and I'm sure you're not the only one that can do that. In fact, I know.
So, I'm going to continue to have my crush on the crush on you, and when you move on, and I do too, I'm still going to have my crush on a crush, it just wont be you. If it's even you now... Which I'm not sure. I know it sounds weird. But I think you only thought you had a crush on me, because I'm familiar, your body wanted the chemicals in your brian. And I probably only fell for you, well because of the same reason. Well not so much that you were familiar, but because you put that stupid idea in my head. And I have a crush on the idea that you had a crush on me. And I'm hanging on to the felling for dear life, because I know it's not going to happen again anytime soon.
Sorry, it's not very fair to you, oops... But I thought I should say that.
That being said, what do I have to lose? You said you wanted to talk to me in person, well, if you don't call, I'll call you. Because I have self-respected/prided my way out of too many opportunities. Life is not a passive aggressive struggle for power like I treat it, I don't lose by calling first, or calling twice (three times is to many though.) Anne is right, this isn't pride, it's fear... What am I so scared of?
Easy, rejection. That the beauty with this situation, thats already happened. So, really what do I have to lose? Exactly... I'll call tomorrow if I don't hear from you.
Thanks...
P.S. Matt, I'm sorry for pissing you off, I was trying to be a good friend. Remember when we were friends? We were friends before we ever started dating. And sorry I missed your show, but in all the times you've been in a band, I missed show of yours... I went as a friend and left an enemy. Sorry... I know your going through alot of emotions right now, but we're big kids now, we've both got to learn to handle them. So yeah... Just sorry I guess... I wont do it again, ok?
So, I'm going to continue to have my crush on the crush on you, and when you move on, and I do too, I'm still going to have my crush on a crush, it just wont be you. If it's even you now... Which I'm not sure. I know it sounds weird. But I think you only thought you had a crush on me, because I'm familiar, your body wanted the chemicals in your brian. And I probably only fell for you, well because of the same reason. Well not so much that you were familiar, but because you put that stupid idea in my head. And I have a crush on the idea that you had a crush on me. And I'm hanging on to the felling for dear life, because I know it's not going to happen again anytime soon.
Sorry, it's not very fair to you, oops... But I thought I should say that.
That being said, what do I have to lose? You said you wanted to talk to me in person, well, if you don't call, I'll call you. Because I have self-respected/prided my way out of too many opportunities. Life is not a passive aggressive struggle for power like I treat it, I don't lose by calling first, or calling twice (three times is to many though.) Anne is right, this isn't pride, it's fear... What am I so scared of?
Easy, rejection. That the beauty with this situation, thats already happened. So, really what do I have to lose? Exactly... I'll call tomorrow if I don't hear from you.
Thanks...
P.S. Matt, I'm sorry for pissing you off, I was trying to be a good friend. Remember when we were friends? We were friends before we ever started dating. And sorry I missed your show, but in all the times you've been in a band, I missed show of yours... I went as a friend and left an enemy. Sorry... I know your going through alot of emotions right now, but we're big kids now, we've both got to learn to handle them. So yeah... Just sorry I guess... I wont do it again, ok?