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Ok I havent written in here for awhile. I guess I just havent felt like it, but right now I do.
I am trying with all my might to be happy and normal lately, but my family and school is making it to hard. School is just burning me out, this semester I feel like I am always saying.. "cant, I need to study". do you know how much that blows? Yeah I know it will benefit my future, blah blah blah.. but in all reality... future is taking to fucking long. I have a teacher this semester who is a complete idiot and it makes me so mad! I have to report her to the school. ugh.
My family has gone fucking nuts. My mom is always moody, my dad is a dick almost all the time now, and my grandma is lashing out at everyone. I hate to sound cocky, but how am I related to these people. I am so fucking nice. I dont get it!?
From the stress I went from 133lbs to 141lbs in 2 weeks. When I get stressed I eat, and I guess the hormone Cortisol in my body secretes more.. which causes you to gain weight when stressed. Some women it stops secreting when under stress and they lose weight... why cant I get a break like that? lol. So yeah basically I am back to ground zero. This morning I weighed in at 138.5. Which is depressing. Almost 2 weeks ago my 9's were getting big, and now my tight pair, is TO TIGHT. lol. I am determined though to lose like another pound before thanksgiving, because we know I will be eating!
This sunday is nicks family's thanksgiving. I am not sure what they are having all I know is that his mom is making cheesecake.. and well that is always good! lol. I am only going to eat a small dinner so that I can have my fill of cheesecake. word. ¡OY! Then next thursday my family (who originally wasnt even going to have a dinner) is having turkey, ham, potatoes, corn, stuffing, broccoli, and pumpkin pie. I am in charge of making the pies this year. Hope they turn out. So yeah, my mom/dad/uncle/mason/justin/nick/and I will all be at dinner. My grandma is being a bitch and doesnt want to come. She acts 5, but that happens with old age so I am told.
I just want to get this semester over with. I really dont have the strength left to deal with 2 out of 4 of my classes.
I am trying with all my might to be happy and normal lately, but my family and school is making it to hard. School is just burning me out, this semester I feel like I am always saying.. "cant, I need to study". do you know how much that blows? Yeah I know it will benefit my future, blah blah blah.. but in all reality... future is taking to fucking long. I have a teacher this semester who is a complete idiot and it makes me so mad! I have to report her to the school. ugh.
My family has gone fucking nuts. My mom is always moody, my dad is a dick almost all the time now, and my grandma is lashing out at everyone. I hate to sound cocky, but how am I related to these people. I am so fucking nice. I dont get it!?
From the stress I went from 133lbs to 141lbs in 2 weeks. When I get stressed I eat, and I guess the hormone Cortisol in my body secretes more.. which causes you to gain weight when stressed. Some women it stops secreting when under stress and they lose weight... why cant I get a break like that? lol. So yeah basically I am back to ground zero. This morning I weighed in at 138.5. Which is depressing. Almost 2 weeks ago my 9's were getting big, and now my tight pair, is TO TIGHT. lol. I am determined though to lose like another pound before thanksgiving, because we know I will be eating!
This sunday is nicks family's thanksgiving. I am not sure what they are having all I know is that his mom is making cheesecake.. and well that is always good! lol. I am only going to eat a small dinner so that I can have my fill of cheesecake. word. ¡OY! Then next thursday my family (who originally wasnt even going to have a dinner) is having turkey, ham, potatoes, corn, stuffing, broccoli, and pumpkin pie. I am in charge of making the pies this year. Hope they turn out. So yeah, my mom/dad/uncle/mason/justin/nick/and I will all be at dinner. My grandma is being a bitch and doesnt want to come. She acts 5, but that happens with old age so I am told.
I just want to get this semester over with. I really dont have the strength left to deal with 2 out of 4 of my classes.