what do i do?

[cutiee135]

I didn't turn on my phone today until a little after noon... I didn't want to talk to any one becasue I had no clue what to say.. especially to zach because I really have no clue what the fate of our relationship is yet... I want to be with him but ya know he really has pushed my limits.. he's been hiding and lying about smoking for a while and

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"i just wish someone could tell me all the answers"

[serrangel4]

bethany, it's obvious he's never going to change, you're entire livejournal shows that. he will do something wrong and hurt you, and it will push you away. then, he will put in a little effort to do something nice and you will be pulled back in again and all is well for awhile. but guess what, he will most definitely pull the same exact crap he did in the past... and the cycle repeats. the question is though, how much longer do you want to be involved in this cycle? you gotta ask yourself is it REALLY worth it?? because let me tell you something, craig did the same exact thing to me, and i put up with it for two years... and once i finally got some balls to kick him to the curb i was SO much happier. don't let a vacation or special even decide when you would break up. say if valentines day was the next day and you are upset enough to let someone go... don't let it stop you. you gotta do what you gotta do. and plus, if you don't wanna miss out on a vaca take one of your best gf's with you like theresa. because a. being with your