Smile although your heart is breaking
We talked last night and he told me that I have anger problems and that I "fucken piss him off" well what about the shit he pulls huh? And then he went on to tell me that I fight for the hell of it, that i thrive on it but then when i asked well don't you think i'm fighting for a reason that someone did soemthing wrong and he goes nO YOU thrive on fighting..
Last night I realised how little he really cares about me.. and how much easier he is making me thinking about breaking up... just how he spoke to me last night was like he was dominating over me that i was powerless and I felt that way. Powerless, use less.. and I do not want to be in a relationship like that where someone is dominating over me telling me that i'm "Fucken phsyco" i dont' think so that is the last thing you tell you girlfriend.
Then he kept telling me how i humilated myself.. ya know what i don't care what they think we were fighting people fight they (his parents) can get over that. He hasn't experienced humilation until he was in my shoes that night his best friend bitched me out and he just made me sit there and watched me cry...
And then while i was crying at this hosue he just sat there and laughed at me... who wants a guy to laugh at you when your crying when you want to be comforted...
Ya know i never had any anger problems until I met Zach and because he keeps pulling the same shit that he already knows is going ot piss me off but he does it again anyway and says "Accept me for who i am" what how you hurt me i have to accept that? i dont' think so!
The more he doesn't call to tell me he went out, or that he wont be able to stop by that is just pushing me more and more away... maybe that's his plan because after reading the things he was saying to me last night hurt deeper than i've ever been hurt.. maybe i should just end it... drop his things off today and just save myself because i can't just live on when i see him were good and when he's with his friends he's mean.. i can't keep putting my self through that..
but since i thrive on it maybe i should stop...
Last night I realised how little he really cares about me.. and how much easier he is making me thinking about breaking up... just how he spoke to me last night was like he was dominating over me that i was powerless and I felt that way. Powerless, use less.. and I do not want to be in a relationship like that where someone is dominating over me telling me that i'm "Fucken phsyco" i dont' think so that is the last thing you tell you girlfriend.
Then he kept telling me how i humilated myself.. ya know what i don't care what they think we were fighting people fight they (his parents) can get over that. He hasn't experienced humilation until he was in my shoes that night his best friend bitched me out and he just made me sit there and watched me cry...
And then while i was crying at this hosue he just sat there and laughed at me... who wants a guy to laugh at you when your crying when you want to be comforted...
Ya know i never had any anger problems until I met Zach and because he keeps pulling the same shit that he already knows is going ot piss me off but he does it again anyway and says "Accept me for who i am" what how you hurt me i have to accept that? i dont' think so!
The more he doesn't call to tell me he went out, or that he wont be able to stop by that is just pushing me more and more away... maybe that's his plan because after reading the things he was saying to me last night hurt deeper than i've ever been hurt.. maybe i should just end it... drop his things off today and just save myself because i can't just live on when i see him were good and when he's with his friends he's mean.. i can't keep putting my self through that..
but since i thrive on it maybe i should stop...