** Moving On But Your The One That Will Suffer...**
K so me and tay are over, it's been a while since then. Im doing goood, but theres still a little part of me that misses him. He's changed a lot. He's not the taylan i knew in the beginning, he's in to more drugs and shit and ugh i dunno. Im always gonna be here for him no matter what, but being with him isn't something i see right now until he becomes the person he was before. Honestly, what hurts me about this is that he thinks he will be able to find someone new that will be better than me, and i dont wanna sound cocky, but honestly not many people would of stuck around as long as i did after all the tears, the nights i wanted to die because of shit that happened. I loved him, he was like the other half of me but not anymore. But you kno what i kno that maybe im better off without him.... so just so he knows
You might think that whats happened, is for the best, but let me tell you something...your wrong. Your gonna regret ever letting me go, your gonna miss everything we had. Remember when you said your heart only beats for me, and that i'm the best thing that ever happened to you .. well guess what, you just thew that away lilke it meant nothing, i stuck aroiund in your life becuase i loved you i wanted to be with you, i was that one person in your life that would throw everything away and come help or go out of my way to talk to you when something went wrong, let me tell you something theres only one me, nobody can ever be like me, your gonna think one day when your lonely and see that what we had can never be erased, i was your only one and thats how it should of stayed. But you kno what, let me tell you something, if you were able to throw something this long and meaningful away, your a coward, and i can guarantee when you grow up and realize that you miss me and you love me and need me, i wont be there for you , you kno why, because you caused me so much hurt, and so much distrust that i will have someone new, livnig happier than i ever have. You will look back on the days when we'd laugh so hard our guts hurt, when we would kiss and hold eachother, you're gonna miss everything....and finally when you realize you need that and want it back... it will no longer be there.....you threw something your gonna never have again away and i hope you cry just as many tears as you ever made me cry..... im moving on...