It Was Only A Kiss....
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss....
Why cant i seem to get that through my head. IT WAS ONLY A KISS... But to me it wasnt, to me it was letting my guard down and trusting you... Trusting you not to hurt me. Haha. Trust... Funny isn't it. How you TRUST people with everything you've got knowing that they take so much of that for granted. I should have seen that. Maybe I did... maybe I just didnt want to accept it. Maybe, just maybe I thought that this one was real... Maybe I was wrong. "My wish came true"... lies lies lies. What wish? I dont even know what I wish anymore. Thats a sad thing... Without hope, without dreams I am nothing. Just Kendra. If that... I'm not so sure I know that for a fact either... I thought once I walked across that stage I would be worry free. No more "high school drama"... wrong again. It seems to follow me. I often find myself wondering just what it is that is wrong with me. They say you become somewhat like that people you surround yourself with. So why is it that I find myself competing with those people for the attention of others. Not that I long to be in the spot light... I'd just like a little respect. And self worth knowing that i'm good enough. Not just for you... In general. It seems like until I drive that long lonely road away from this place all of this drama is going to continue to linger around me. Maybe its time for me to take that drive... This is too much for me to handle. Why cant it just be like a retro pop song... I want you to want me. Plain and simple. I'm just a girl, who behind this often fake smile... wishes for the world.
It was only a kiss....
Why cant i seem to get that through my head. IT WAS ONLY A KISS... But to me it wasnt, to me it was letting my guard down and trusting you... Trusting you not to hurt me. Haha. Trust... Funny isn't it. How you TRUST people with everything you've got knowing that they take so much of that for granted. I should have seen that. Maybe I did... maybe I just didnt want to accept it. Maybe, just maybe I thought that this one was real... Maybe I was wrong. "My wish came true"... lies lies lies. What wish? I dont even know what I wish anymore. Thats a sad thing... Without hope, without dreams I am nothing. Just Kendra. If that... I'm not so sure I know that for a fact either... I thought once I walked across that stage I would be worry free. No more "high school drama"... wrong again. It seems to follow me. I often find myself wondering just what it is that is wrong with me. They say you become somewhat like that people you surround yourself with. So why is it that I find myself competing with those people for the attention of others. Not that I long to be in the spot light... I'd just like a little respect. And self worth knowing that i'm good enough. Not just for you... In general. It seems like until I drive that long lonely road away from this place all of this drama is going to continue to linger around me. Maybe its time for me to take that drive... This is too much for me to handle. Why cant it just be like a retro pop song... I want you to want me. Plain and simple. I'm just a girl, who behind this often fake smile... wishes for the world.