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the feeling that i got at the door on saturday still hasn't completely worn off. so perpetual thanks to all of my friends. today was real good, jason and i had a good talk last night and we decided to see V for Vendetta today. emma came, too, and i missed that girl a whole lot. that movie is quite possibly the best one i've ever seen in theaters. it was nothing short of incredible. i loved every second of it and every bit of the people i saw it with.
friend.. it's kind of a funny word, isn't it? the definition is even better. dictionary.com says that a friend is "a person whom one knows, likes, and trusts". i guess that one could deduct from this definition that a best friend is a person whom one knows completely, likes completely, and trusts completely, moreso than anyone else. lately, i've been doing a whole lot of thinking about my friends (that i love them) and my best friends (that i'm worried). it doesn't take much to see that i've been kind of undergoing a shift from who i normally spend all of my time with. this is not my choice, nor do i assume that it is the choice of the other people. i think it ultimately is coming down to the fact that some of us change and some us stay the same, for better and worse. the test of friendship is whether or not that adaptation, however drastic it may be, manages to get in the way of a friendship. furthermore, whether or not one or both of the friends is willing to sacrifice for the other. in my personal opinion, and feel free to elaborate and refute this point, i feel that if someone changes, fine, but when it is a change that is unsubstantiated and completely unnecessary and possibly dangerous, then the unchanging friend can really do nothing but sit back and watch the change happen, completely helpless. i miss this time last year so so much. i had a great relationship with all of my friends, was meeting so many of the people that i now consider to be among my best friends, and was happy in the boy department. now, i've got my big ol' group of friends and in general, i'd say we're pretty damn happy, but its the gradual increasing distance growing between some of my friends and me that is really kind of quelching my enjoyment of life.
and about that boy issue. i'm fine with being single. or actually, no i'm not, but i'm fine accepting the fact that i'm single and that the closest that i get to being in a relationship is my ongoing third-fifth-seventh wheel status. don't get me wrong, i like being a wheel a whole lot of the time because i love my girls and my boys and even better when my girls are dating my boys, but it gets a little lonesome in the life of cathy. i think i need a relationship, and pronto. it's not like i've never had the chance to date, i do somewhat frequently, but i always push it away or they disappear (great life story, eh?). those days are over. i'm starting in a new direction called bring on the men.
so guys, whats your definition of a friend?
and what should my gameplan be to get a man in my life? i'm abandoning any previous hopes unless something happens soon, because i don't enjoy waiting around.
Dorothy moves to click her ruby shoes
Right in tune with "Dark Side of the Moon"
Someone, someone could tell me
Where I belong
Be calm, be brave, it'll be okay...
i guess all i really need is family, friends, and guster.
btw, i'm going to see guster on 4/26 at duke if you're interested in coming along.
friend.. it's kind of a funny word, isn't it? the definition is even better. dictionary.com says that a friend is "a person whom one knows, likes, and trusts". i guess that one could deduct from this definition that a best friend is a person whom one knows completely, likes completely, and trusts completely, moreso than anyone else. lately, i've been doing a whole lot of thinking about my friends (that i love them) and my best friends (that i'm worried). it doesn't take much to see that i've been kind of undergoing a shift from who i normally spend all of my time with. this is not my choice, nor do i assume that it is the choice of the other people. i think it ultimately is coming down to the fact that some of us change and some us stay the same, for better and worse. the test of friendship is whether or not that adaptation, however drastic it may be, manages to get in the way of a friendship. furthermore, whether or not one or both of the friends is willing to sacrifice for the other. in my personal opinion, and feel free to elaborate and refute this point, i feel that if someone changes, fine, but when it is a change that is unsubstantiated and completely unnecessary and possibly dangerous, then the unchanging friend can really do nothing but sit back and watch the change happen, completely helpless. i miss this time last year so so much. i had a great relationship with all of my friends, was meeting so many of the people that i now consider to be among my best friends, and was happy in the boy department. now, i've got my big ol' group of friends and in general, i'd say we're pretty damn happy, but its the gradual increasing distance growing between some of my friends and me that is really kind of quelching my enjoyment of life.
and about that boy issue. i'm fine with being single. or actually, no i'm not, but i'm fine accepting the fact that i'm single and that the closest that i get to being in a relationship is my ongoing third-fifth-seventh wheel status. don't get me wrong, i like being a wheel a whole lot of the time because i love my girls and my boys and even better when my girls are dating my boys, but it gets a little lonesome in the life of cathy. i think i need a relationship, and pronto. it's not like i've never had the chance to date, i do somewhat frequently, but i always push it away or they disappear (great life story, eh?). those days are over. i'm starting in a new direction called bring on the men.
so guys, whats your definition of a friend?
and what should my gameplan be to get a man in my life? i'm abandoning any previous hopes unless something happens soon, because i don't enjoy waiting around.
Dorothy moves to click her ruby shoes
Right in tune with "Dark Side of the Moon"
Someone, someone could tell me
Where I belong
Be calm, be brave, it'll be okay...
i guess all i really need is family, friends, and guster.
btw, i'm going to see guster on 4/26 at duke if you're interested in coming along.