I'm sick of your sores
Well I stayed home from school today. I've missed like 5 or 6 days of school already, it's crazy. I can only miss one or two more days of school until after xmas. Gayyyyy!
Im pretty sick, actually I'm a little better than I was. I just couldn't go to school today, and I didn't even ask to stay home, my mom made me. She was being real nice to me today anyway, so that made it easier for me to feel better. I was upset though when I woke up this morning because I really wanted to see Tim, and I couldn't and it upset me. But he got to come over today for like an hour before he had to go to work. He's working right now, and I miss him alot actually. We're doing pretty good, but there's some tension between us causing us to.. well we don't argue or get mad at eachother, but we're like... idk it's hard to explain. I know he just misses me right now. I know he hates when I'm not in school. I hate it when I can't be there for him. I just needed a day to rest. I kinda don't wanna go back tmw because man, I'm STILLLL so fucking behind in school. Im WAYYYYYY behind in Algebra still. Idk if she's even gonna let me turn the assignments in. I need to borrow someones algebra book this weekend, get it all done and turn that fuckin shit in. I'm stressed as fuck about school. Even though report cards dont come til AFTER my bday and halloween horror nights and homeocming, but still, i want to be totally off restriction. It doesnt even feel like I'm on restriction right now. I barely even fucking notice. I think they forgot about it. They told me I couldn't go out on Saturdays but I just went out this past saturday and it was tight. And I told my mom that Tim's taking me to get my hair done this Saturday and shit, and she didn't say no. I think we're gonna celebrate my bday that night. Meghans b-day is this Friday. Hopefully that will be good. I can't really mention anything because I know she reads this. lol I don't wanna be an idiot and give it away like I did Tim's shirt when I was high. lol So yeah.
Ughhh fuck I feel shity, and I'm def. pretty fucking lonely. I finally played guitar today, came up with some easy ass little song. But I wanna be able to play melodies and harmonics and shit, and I'm just not getting it down really. I need Tim to come over and seriously spend time showing me shit. I know I can eventually get that shit down. I just need him to help me and show me. So yeah.. Idk. Fuck I miss that kid alot right now. Its seriously making me mad. And it doesnt help that I've sat here and completely changed my myspace and it wont show up how i changed it. Ughh IM getting a fucking headache from that shit. I think I'm gonna try to find something to do until I talk to Tim when he gets home. Thats fucking 2 hours from now. I wish he didn't have to work so goddamn much. It sucks. And it doesnt help hes at work right now, all upset and shit cause I know how he feels when Im not around. I think that when you're in love with someone, it's when you can be around them all the time, when you'd rather be around them mroe than anyone else, and you know you'll never get tired of them, you'll never want them to go away, you'll never find yourself wanting soemthing else. Thats how it is with us, but I really don't know what you'd call our feelings. But that's my opinion of how it is when you fall in love. Who knows.
Im pretty sick, actually I'm a little better than I was. I just couldn't go to school today, and I didn't even ask to stay home, my mom made me. She was being real nice to me today anyway, so that made it easier for me to feel better. I was upset though when I woke up this morning because I really wanted to see Tim, and I couldn't and it upset me. But he got to come over today for like an hour before he had to go to work. He's working right now, and I miss him alot actually. We're doing pretty good, but there's some tension between us causing us to.. well we don't argue or get mad at eachother, but we're like... idk it's hard to explain. I know he just misses me right now. I know he hates when I'm not in school. I hate it when I can't be there for him. I just needed a day to rest. I kinda don't wanna go back tmw because man, I'm STILLLL so fucking behind in school. Im WAYYYYYY behind in Algebra still. Idk if she's even gonna let me turn the assignments in. I need to borrow someones algebra book this weekend, get it all done and turn that fuckin shit in. I'm stressed as fuck about school. Even though report cards dont come til AFTER my bday and halloween horror nights and homeocming, but still, i want to be totally off restriction. It doesnt even feel like I'm on restriction right now. I barely even fucking notice. I think they forgot about it. They told me I couldn't go out on Saturdays but I just went out this past saturday and it was tight. And I told my mom that Tim's taking me to get my hair done this Saturday and shit, and she didn't say no. I think we're gonna celebrate my bday that night. Meghans b-day is this Friday. Hopefully that will be good. I can't really mention anything because I know she reads this. lol I don't wanna be an idiot and give it away like I did Tim's shirt when I was high. lol So yeah.
Ughhh fuck I feel shity, and I'm def. pretty fucking lonely. I finally played guitar today, came up with some easy ass little song. But I wanna be able to play melodies and harmonics and shit, and I'm just not getting it down really. I need Tim to come over and seriously spend time showing me shit. I know I can eventually get that shit down. I just need him to help me and show me. So yeah.. Idk. Fuck I miss that kid alot right now. Its seriously making me mad. And it doesnt help that I've sat here and completely changed my myspace and it wont show up how i changed it. Ughh IM getting a fucking headache from that shit. I think I'm gonna try to find something to do until I talk to Tim when he gets home. Thats fucking 2 hours from now. I wish he didn't have to work so goddamn much. It sucks. And it doesnt help hes at work right now, all upset and shit cause I know how he feels when Im not around. I think that when you're in love with someone, it's when you can be around them all the time, when you'd rather be around them mroe than anyone else, and you know you'll never get tired of them, you'll never want them to go away, you'll never find yourself wanting soemthing else. Thats how it is with us, but I really don't know what you'd call our feelings. But that's my opinion of how it is when you fall in love. Who knows.