I Love You!
I've had a pretty interesting night with the whole Steph/Bill thing. As usually she's being a stupid bitch and we're both sick of putting up with it. I didn't start it tonight though. She imed me for the STUPIDEST reason. It's like she tries to get int he way of Bill and I. I won't let her win though. She went as far as to make comments on my being in school an extra year and shit like that. That fucking pissed me off. But wheatever I know that I'm a better person so I won't let her get to me. It was harder when nobody else agreed with me (due to their oblivian) but since most the people I talk to now do its much easier to not let her get to me. :-P
Since I've been all caught up in that tonight I got my mind off the issues with Christopher. Not the best way to go about that but w/e. However he sent me a couple ims around 12 when he should have been sleeping. In a way it made me feel better about thigns but worse at the same time. I guess the fact that he's losing sleep over it proves to me that he actually cares which I've had my doubts over lately. However I don't want to hurt him. I don't want to just put up with stuff either. I guess we really need to talk in person because I don't want to lose this friendship at all. I really hope you don't either Chris. I love you as a friend and I won't give up no matter how upset I am.
Bill and I seem to be getting closer lately. Sort of weird that we could even get closer but every day I feel something stronger for him. I'm at home right now and I miss him sooooo much. Crazy how that works huh? It's so nice to have someone care about me so much and its nice to have someone to care about. He rocks my world.
Talking to a lot of new people online lately. I fortunately got a chance to talk to Joe tonight. If you don't know, he's the friend who moved to Arizona. He's doign really good. HE got engaged!!!! HE sent me pics of his girl and his ferret and his car. It was really nice talking to him and I hope we can keep in touch more often. I used to be good friends with him. That Nate kid imed me and chatted with me for a bit. He's interesting to say the least. I've been talking to Matt and Jared online too. I enjoy talking to Matt, but Jared never seems interested in talking. I think hes playign games at the same time. Okay....time to go sleepy inmy own bed!
Since I've been all caught up in that tonight I got my mind off the issues with Christopher. Not the best way to go about that but w/e. However he sent me a couple ims around 12 when he should have been sleeping. In a way it made me feel better about thigns but worse at the same time. I guess the fact that he's losing sleep over it proves to me that he actually cares which I've had my doubts over lately. However I don't want to hurt him. I don't want to just put up with stuff either. I guess we really need to talk in person because I don't want to lose this friendship at all. I really hope you don't either Chris. I love you as a friend and I won't give up no matter how upset I am.
Bill and I seem to be getting closer lately. Sort of weird that we could even get closer but every day I feel something stronger for him. I'm at home right now and I miss him sooooo much. Crazy how that works huh? It's so nice to have someone care about me so much and its nice to have someone to care about. He rocks my world.
Talking to a lot of new people online lately. I fortunately got a chance to talk to Joe tonight. If you don't know, he's the friend who moved to Arizona. He's doign really good. HE got engaged!!!! HE sent me pics of his girl and his ferret and his car. It was really nice talking to him and I hope we can keep in touch more often. I used to be good friends with him. That Nate kid imed me and chatted with me for a bit. He's interesting to say the least. I've been talking to Matt and Jared online too. I enjoy talking to Matt, but Jared never seems interested in talking. I think hes playign games at the same time. Okay....time to go sleepy inmy own bed!