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I don't want what other girls want. I don't want to be a successful buisnesswoman. I don't want to be a model. I don't need a fancy job title.
I want to be wife. A lover. A mother. I want a house with a big backyard and kids to fill it with. I want to wake up in the middle of the night because she can't sleep. I want to read bedtime stories. I want to love and be loved.
And there is only one person I can see this future with. And you and I know who it is. I can't sleep anymore without thinking about him. I dream about him. I think about him all day. I dial his number and stare at the phone, telling myself to do it. Press talk. Just talk to him. Before it's too late and some other girl has found out how great he is.I don't want him to be with any other person except me. I want to spend the rest of my life with him.
Why am I only just realizing this? Why didn't I know before? I loved him.. sure enough I did.. I could just stare into his eyes and feel it. But this sensation I am feeling now is more than just love. It surpasses love. It's greater than love.
Just thinking about it.. makes me sick. I want to throw up.. I want to scream.. I want to run away.
But running won't make him love me. Running won't make him realize that I am the one he wants.. I gotta do it. I gotta call him. I might be heartbroken when I am done.. but I'm already heartbroken.. how much worse can it get?
Roxy
I want to be wife. A lover. A mother. I want a house with a big backyard and kids to fill it with. I want to wake up in the middle of the night because she can't sleep. I want to read bedtime stories. I want to love and be loved.
And there is only one person I can see this future with. And you and I know who it is. I can't sleep anymore without thinking about him. I dream about him. I think about him all day. I dial his number and stare at the phone, telling myself to do it. Press talk. Just talk to him. Before it's too late and some other girl has found out how great he is.I don't want him to be with any other person except me. I want to spend the rest of my life with him.
Why am I only just realizing this? Why didn't I know before? I loved him.. sure enough I did.. I could just stare into his eyes and feel it. But this sensation I am feeling now is more than just love. It surpasses love. It's greater than love.
Just thinking about it.. makes me sick. I want to throw up.. I want to scream.. I want to run away.
But running won't make him love me. Running won't make him realize that I am the one he wants.. I gotta do it. I gotta call him. I might be heartbroken when I am done.. but I'm already heartbroken.. how much worse can it get?
Roxy