holy shit
isnt it crazy how life can just make these huge ass turns on you. on day you think you know what you want and the next you have no idea what you want....Well yesterday i went and saw jay at the jail and i was sooo determined that i want him and only him and i wanna wait for him....but that same day i met this guy tim and hes amazing. He's the first guy to ever tell me i deserve better and hes the first guy to ever ask me if i wanted him to walk me to my door....come on how sweet is that! This guy is amazing and i havnt been able to get him off my mind all day. I just hope he wants something you know. something real...I know he likes me cause he was talking to kathy about it....and he was saying he knows i dont want jay and that he wants someone to care about him....hes so AMAZING....and he has the most gorgeous eyes i have ever seen....thier so blue....he a blonde and thats weird...hes the only one i have been attracted to in soooo long. since like steve. lol. Kathy said for me to follow my heart and obviously my heart is thinking about tim. When before all it could think about was jay....Im so happy im not with Ben....lol....my visit with jay was good....he seems to be doing well....it was crazy cause tim was in the booth next to me with kathy seeing david and i kept catching him looking at me and jay....and then when we were leaving Tim was holding the door for me ( he wont let me open a door for him....hes so cute) and he was like did you notice he couldnt look you in the eyes and i was like yeah i did notice that accually and he was like cause hes ashamed he lost someone like you.....god he says the sweetest things. well im gonna lay down now....ill keep this thing updated....Love always xoxox tiffany