moshing 4 and 2 year olds........
what's up guys, girls and other things of life,
it is late...... well to me anyways. and i just got done babsitting for the day. i have worked all day long.... (so i really don't know how im still even awake beats me......) but it is just peachy with me.but the funnt thing is my nephews really like good charlotte and i have a dvd of a show and so i put it in and at first it scared garett (4) and we had all the lights off. the funny thing was after the oping song was over he was just fine. he was jumping around and moshing with his brothe caelib (2) and they were like hey ant sesy...... (can't say my name yet)and it is so cute, anyways they were like you have to jump and mosh with us. so there i was in the midle of my living romm jumping and moshing with them. then gareets song came on (boys and girls)and he was singing along to every word and he was like i love this song. he said something about billy and benji but i couldn't tell what they were saying.... ( i think something like they are so cool) i just thought that was so funny. and caelib was doing this hip acction thing. i have no clue where he got it from. probably fom is mamma. but at least that kept them distracted for an hour. and i have never laughed sao much in my life over something like that. but then my dad came home and he don't like good charlotte (rolls eyes) so we had to turn it of and then it was on to my room where they tought they had to ponce on me every 5 minutes and drag them on a sheet. wich i don't mind. i love to spend time with them. but anyways on to anther part of my life..........
for the people that know me. you know who david is for the people that don't let me give you the fast version of the story. we known each other for six years and i have probably liked him for three of them. and im not the kind of girl just to have a crush on someone and not say anything. well i told him and then people started to tell me he liked me to. well some girls did not like that so i did not give a fuck either. well the years went by without him saying anything and i really didn't let it go either. im just not that way. but anyways........ he got a record deal in Nashvile. and of course he tool it. who wouldn't. well they day he left we were throughing him a BIG going away party. and he pulled me over to the side and said we needed to talk about something. well we taled and talked and taled... you get the point we talked. and then he was like i like you alot.... and i just looked at him. very confused. well he was like i never wanted to hurt you. and again i just looked at him confused. and he held me and i was not moving.....( i could not beleve he was doing this to me) and he kissed me so softly.welll the thing is that he when up there and called me like a month latter teling me that he had met someone else.... agin i was just confused. and he was like im sorry i ever ment to hurt you. i was like fuck you and hung up on him........ well the other day he called me and was like i miss you and just saying all this stuff about how she was using him and shit and i was like well what do you want me to do about it..... and he was like i don't know..... h said he still liked me alot...... so here i am confused as ever on what i should do.( so much for the short version) but the thing is i don't want to be the one to hurt him and tell him that im not into him anymore. even my friends say i could have everything i ever wanted. but the thing is he is all i ever wanted. not the guy that sings or not the guy that got the chance of a life time. i just want him and only him. it is so hard to explain. i did not fall in love with the guy that sings and stuff like that. i fell in love with who he was around me and only me. and he is not the same guy anymore. i still feel the same but i don't. im confused.......
and again for the people that know me . know that i love to wite poems. been doing it sense i was 12. and im 20 now. i know alot of people use to ask to use my poems and i don't care if you do that. i love when people use them or even better even like them. you can tell me that they suck i don't care. i would just try and make it better. but hey can't please evryone. and im only going to give this little speach once so you never have to see it again ever.
Just Neeed To Know, But Im Ok On My Own
Do I need someone to feel loved,
Do I need someone to hold me to feel complet,
Do I ned someone by my side to prove a point to people,
I don't need a boyfriend,
I never had one,
So I don't need one just to get hurt in the end,
I don't need guys to buy me things to prove themseves to me,
I don't want that,
Im independent,
I can make it on my own,
I don't need a guy to tell me Im beautiful,
I already knew that,
But,
I need to know what it feels like,
To be loved,
To be held,
To have someone by my side,
To have a boyfriend,
To have him there to the end,
To know what it is like to get gifts just becuase he cares,
I don't want to be on my own anymore,
To have im say I am beautiful and mean it,
But,
I have made it this long,
I can make it on my own........... (I think)
^_^leslie
it is late...... well to me anyways. and i just got done babsitting for the day. i have worked all day long.... (so i really don't know how im still even awake beats me......) but it is just peachy with me.but the funnt thing is my nephews really like good charlotte and i have a dvd of a show and so i put it in and at first it scared garett (4) and we had all the lights off. the funny thing was after the oping song was over he was just fine. he was jumping around and moshing with his brothe caelib (2) and they were like hey ant sesy...... (can't say my name yet)and it is so cute, anyways they were like you have to jump and mosh with us. so there i was in the midle of my living romm jumping and moshing with them. then gareets song came on (boys and girls)and he was singing along to every word and he was like i love this song. he said something about billy and benji but i couldn't tell what they were saying.... ( i think something like they are so cool) i just thought that was so funny. and caelib was doing this hip acction thing. i have no clue where he got it from. probably fom is mamma. but at least that kept them distracted for an hour. and i have never laughed sao much in my life over something like that. but then my dad came home and he don't like good charlotte (rolls eyes) so we had to turn it of and then it was on to my room where they tought they had to ponce on me every 5 minutes and drag them on a sheet. wich i don't mind. i love to spend time with them. but anyways on to anther part of my life..........
for the people that know me. you know who david is for the people that don't let me give you the fast version of the story. we known each other for six years and i have probably liked him for three of them. and im not the kind of girl just to have a crush on someone and not say anything. well i told him and then people started to tell me he liked me to. well some girls did not like that so i did not give a fuck either. well the years went by without him saying anything and i really didn't let it go either. im just not that way. but anyways........ he got a record deal in Nashvile. and of course he tool it. who wouldn't. well they day he left we were throughing him a BIG going away party. and he pulled me over to the side and said we needed to talk about something. well we taled and talked and taled... you get the point we talked. and then he was like i like you alot.... and i just looked at him. very confused. well he was like i never wanted to hurt you. and again i just looked at him confused. and he held me and i was not moving.....( i could not beleve he was doing this to me) and he kissed me so softly.welll the thing is that he when up there and called me like a month latter teling me that he had met someone else.... agin i was just confused. and he was like im sorry i ever ment to hurt you. i was like fuck you and hung up on him........ well the other day he called me and was like i miss you and just saying all this stuff about how she was using him and shit and i was like well what do you want me to do about it..... and he was like i don't know..... h said he still liked me alot...... so here i am confused as ever on what i should do.( so much for the short version) but the thing is i don't want to be the one to hurt him and tell him that im not into him anymore. even my friends say i could have everything i ever wanted. but the thing is he is all i ever wanted. not the guy that sings or not the guy that got the chance of a life time. i just want him and only him. it is so hard to explain. i did not fall in love with the guy that sings and stuff like that. i fell in love with who he was around me and only me. and he is not the same guy anymore. i still feel the same but i don't. im confused.......
and again for the people that know me . know that i love to wite poems. been doing it sense i was 12. and im 20 now. i know alot of people use to ask to use my poems and i don't care if you do that. i love when people use them or even better even like them. you can tell me that they suck i don't care. i would just try and make it better. but hey can't please evryone. and im only going to give this little speach once so you never have to see it again ever.
Just Neeed To Know, But Im Ok On My Own
Do I need someone to feel loved,
Do I need someone to hold me to feel complet,
Do I ned someone by my side to prove a point to people,
I don't need a boyfriend,
I never had one,
So I don't need one just to get hurt in the end,
I don't need guys to buy me things to prove themseves to me,
I don't want that,
Im independent,
I can make it on my own,
I don't need a guy to tell me Im beautiful,
I already knew that,
But,
I need to know what it feels like,
To be loved,
To be held,
To have someone by my side,
To have a boyfriend,
To have him there to the end,
To know what it is like to get gifts just becuase he cares,
I don't want to be on my own anymore,
To have im say I am beautiful and mean it,
But,
I have made it this long,
I can make it on my own........... (I think)
^_^leslie