Skipped February
February was a pretty bad month. Except that my birthday was in it. And the Norristown show. But other than that...people passing away, getting ripped a new one in music ed class, and basically losing any motivation i had for teaching music. Some of it is coming back, but I just wish I could go straight to teaching as a real job, instead of being taped, evaluated by 13 classmates and my instructor...who is pretty harsh. Cause I've worked in these settings before and have never had a problem...until I get under pressure and I have a hard time explaining myself. Oh well. So I spent a good majority of last week thinking of what else I could do with my life minus teach music. And I couldn't think of anything. So even if I really did want to get out of music education, there would be nothing else for me to do...so I guess I'm staying. I'll deal. DCI decision is finally made, and not feeling the emptyness in my stomach of when I made the decision not to march last year I know this is the right choice. If I went to DCI this summer it would be for all the wrong reasons. I would only be going to get tan and skinny and to come back saying I marched DCI. I hate outside colorguard. Why would I want to do it all summer, when there is wind, heat, rain, bus sleep, sulfur water, when I can just march winterguard with no elements? I remember a good 3 or 4 times in '05 when I told myself...and my seat partner...that no matter how much I like this after the seasons over, I'm never doing this again. Maybe I just hated it because I had to walk around hiding my face after all my friends went to crusaders or cadets and i went to cap reg...or maybe cause the organization just sucked...but def a baaad summer minus the friends I made. So no DCI...and I don't think I'm doing DCA either. Taking the whooole summer off. Its going to either be amazing or I'm going to hate it. Most likely hate it. But we'll see. I think it needs to be done. Hopefully I'll hold some Mount Pleasant practices...I'm starting them up soon so they will have a good training backround before band camp...instead of teaching 5 out of the 9 girls drop spins on the first day of camp! Erroneous...but no ones fault. And I am going to go to the beach. The last time I was at a beach was DCI finals '05 in cape cod...and thats sad. Most likely going to work at Lake Compounce again in retail so I will get to put more tattoos on sketchy people and wipe down more strollers!! Hmm what else happened in Feb...Apex? Apex is going great. The crowds at Norristown and Upper Moreland were amazing. Those two performance made me remember why I liked colorguard again. I havn't had a crowd react that way to anything I've been a part of since...i think the minuano rifle feature cheshire '02! It was amazing. Even though I dropped one stupid thing at each show, I had 2 decent runs. Norristown was definitely better. Lots of people I knew were there...old instructors...daniel boone...udcg girls who i didnt even know where there...it was a littttle stressful but it went well!! So that makes it even better. Then we had the regional last weekend. It was fun. Our first show was apparently pretty bad...but when I'm performing I tend to zone everything out except for what I'm doing (relax....i look for timing and everything lol) and don't notice when things go wrong...so if I'm having a good show...then so is everyone else. So I walked off the floor pretty happy but we had a bad show. My parents came down to see me, but sadly i only got to see them for about 1.5 minutes because we had to go to the bus right after we performed and then we sat there for a half hour. I should of asked someone if we were leaving right away or if we were waiting for scores but I was just in the "everyones going to he bus mode, i gotta go!" type deal and said hi quick then left. But it was nice to see them! And all the old Cheshire parents I kept running into was great too! And everyone who went to Sac even though they weren't allowed to talk to me before the show. Except for 1 who was sneaky haha. Overall good times! We came in last. But 4th in equipment. Maybe they don't get our show yet? All I know is that we are doing some hard shit. And I would like a higher score, thanks! Maybe cause we're making it look sooo easy they think it is lol. Anyways, I think I'm just going to disregard scores and base this season off of how much fun i'm having, and if that was the case, we just made block. So I'm happy with this season, even if we are ranked 21/23 right now. Its fine. Its a good challenge and I'm getting in shape and its a really fun show to perform. Esp the angry parts, which my face always looks pissed off all the time anyways so i've been told and know for a fact i guess. I've also been recently told that I am intimidating? Am I intimidating? I don't mean to be. As soon as I talk I feel like no one would think so anymore. I guess its just the way I walk around. Hm. Anyways. Las Vegas is this weekend. Getting excited to hopefully beat a few people. Going on right after fantasia. Not like they won last year or anything. And they carwheeled over mattresses under a 7 or 8 or whatever they threw. But we get Monday as a free day after we perform and then come back Tuesday. Then the homeshow, then RI then a few weeks until finals. Finals is only 7 weeks away. Thats scary. We have a lot to do in not a lot of time, but I feel like we can pull it off. You better watch out. I think thats it, its 1 am...and tomorrow is thursday...meaning i have to wake up for dr bobs class...and not jim's so already i have about 99% less motivation to wake up.