Fucking Grandad
Ok, quick update to say that i HATE my grandad. i went home last night just overnight in order to have a christmas meal with my parents and grandparents. Most of it went ok but then at the end right before everyone left, my grandad decided to be a complete bastard and say some stuff which he always used to say when i was a kid. It took me right back to when i was 8 years old and he used to make me feel miserable every time i saw him.
Ever since then i've been totally desperate to cut. somehow i haven't but i'm not entirely sure how and to be honest i wouldn't be surprised if i do. i have to. It's just like i'm a little kid again. i feel so awful. I hate him so much.
Anyway, i'm gonna stop there before i depress myself completely and confuse you all totally. suffice to say i just wanna kill the bastard and if he was here right now, i'd at least be shouting at him if not trying to hold him down and throttle him. Fucking Bastard.
Cut
Ever since then i've been totally desperate to cut. somehow i haven't but i'm not entirely sure how and to be honest i wouldn't be surprised if i do. i have to. It's just like i'm a little kid again. i feel so awful. I hate him so much.
Anyway, i'm gonna stop there before i depress myself completely and confuse you all totally. suffice to say i just wanna kill the bastard and if he was here right now, i'd at least be shouting at him if not trying to hold him down and throttle him. Fucking Bastard.
Cut