Feeling low
Try and understand this (and if you do, you're doing better than me!)
Right now, i don't want to cut, not really really tho part of me does. But i want to cause huge amounts of harm to myself.
I'm fighting against going down the same path as always at this time of year. But i want more than anything else at the moment to be there again.
I feel like a fat blob who REALLY needs to lose weight. But i sit here eating cookies after stuffing my face full of food all day.
All i want to do is curl up in a corner and cry. But i don't seem able to find enough tears to satisfy.
I don't feel loved or cared for so think i should just give up. But i can't let myself go and for some reason i'm still clinging on.
I can feel fine one minute, happy, content and excited about the future. But the next i just want to die and it takes all i have to keep myself away from my blade and the bathroom.
I want to tell someone how i feel. But whenever the opportunity arises i run away from it, say i'm fine and try to carry on.
I hate feeling this angry all of the time, always snapping at people. But i don't tell anyone what the real problem is so they think i'm being grumpy.
I hate my life at the moment.
Right now, i don't want to cut, not really really tho part of me does. But i want to cause huge amounts of harm to myself.
I'm fighting against going down the same path as always at this time of year. But i want more than anything else at the moment to be there again.
I feel like a fat blob who REALLY needs to lose weight. But i sit here eating cookies after stuffing my face full of food all day.
All i want to do is curl up in a corner and cry. But i don't seem able to find enough tears to satisfy.
I don't feel loved or cared for so think i should just give up. But i can't let myself go and for some reason i'm still clinging on.
I can feel fine one minute, happy, content and excited about the future. But the next i just want to die and it takes all i have to keep myself away from my blade and the bathroom.
I want to tell someone how i feel. But whenever the opportunity arises i run away from it, say i'm fine and try to carry on.
I hate feeling this angry all of the time, always snapping at people. But i don't tell anyone what the real problem is so they think i'm being grumpy.
I hate my life at the moment.