oib once agian
so i havent written in a very long time. and once again i am sitting at the beach. this time i am alone in my thoughts and in this room.....
its been a long time and alot of changes. i fucked up many times since the last time. but i have learned. i almost lost my best friend. i almost lost a good friend. all for something that we both knew wouldnt work. now its all better.
i sit here and enjoy the sounds of the ocean, the sounds of the ice cracking in my bourbon. and i should be in bed. although i am wide awake.
i really like her. she is something else. why is it that things are good when there is someone involved. i am never even close to happy when i am alone. so now i am happy.
i havent seen her since thursday and i miss her so much. although i know that for once i can go this long without her.
its an odd feeling when i talk to my friends down here and we talk about being grown up for once. its not about the petty shit anymore. its about realizing we are older and people are older. we all need different things and yet everything can work out.
so many changes and yet if you look at it in perspective thats life. grow up. get older. realize things change. what you are looking for changes. what you want changes. and what you want is right in front of you.
you cant hold on to the past as much as you want to. there are things that will always be the same and things that you will always come back to. and thats how it works. but even if you come back to them, hold on to the memories, but live your live. thats whats important.
i have one ex-girlfriend who is engaged. i have one who is looking for more then she can find. i have one who is married and having a child soon. i have one who is living her life. and thats what its all about. living your life.
in november/december i will be a godfather. paul is having a little baby girl and i will be a major part of her life. i cant believe it. i am so honnored.
all my friends are growing up. and yet we all still us. friends, brothers.
it all makes so much sense to me down here. life, love, and everything else. life can be good or shitty down here and i am ok.
this is heaven/peace even though she is in Orlando.......
its been a long time and alot of changes. i fucked up many times since the last time. but i have learned. i almost lost my best friend. i almost lost a good friend. all for something that we both knew wouldnt work. now its all better.
i sit here and enjoy the sounds of the ocean, the sounds of the ice cracking in my bourbon. and i should be in bed. although i am wide awake.
i really like her. she is something else. why is it that things are good when there is someone involved. i am never even close to happy when i am alone. so now i am happy.
i havent seen her since thursday and i miss her so much. although i know that for once i can go this long without her.
its an odd feeling when i talk to my friends down here and we talk about being grown up for once. its not about the petty shit anymore. its about realizing we are older and people are older. we all need different things and yet everything can work out.
so many changes and yet if you look at it in perspective thats life. grow up. get older. realize things change. what you are looking for changes. what you want changes. and what you want is right in front of you.
you cant hold on to the past as much as you want to. there are things that will always be the same and things that you will always come back to. and thats how it works. but even if you come back to them, hold on to the memories, but live your live. thats whats important.
i have one ex-girlfriend who is engaged. i have one who is looking for more then she can find. i have one who is married and having a child soon. i have one who is living her life. and thats what its all about. living your life.
in november/december i will be a godfather. paul is having a little baby girl and i will be a major part of her life. i cant believe it. i am so honnored.
all my friends are growing up. and yet we all still us. friends, brothers.
it all makes so much sense to me down here. life, love, and everything else. life can be good or shitty down here and i am ok.
this is heaven/peace even though she is in Orlando.......