here i go insecurities.
questions in my mind...
how teh hell is this whole college thing gon work. do you realise that, that's FOUR YEARS? life is full of obstacles, this seems like this is gon' be my biggest. lord knows i ain't the prettiest, I got a little ass, and "okay" titties, and I got a nice face... man yo. sometimes i feel like i ain't good enough for him, like he's all these things.. and me.. I'M just me. like i ain't got nothing to bring to the table... oh well. im gon lay down and listen to sad songs. i ain't feelin up to par today.. i've just had a lot of things on my mind but i don't know how to get them off my mind. i'm just insecure sometimes and i hate that shit. I always gotta try to be the best, at everything. sooner or later, he gon' find someone that's better than me.. man.. what does he see in them that he don't see in me?
i did little. i went out but it wasn't worth it. i should've stayed in the house. my parents are slowly getting on my nerves. I want to punch the hell out of one of my sisters, but i'm not sure what's restraining me. I miss my eldest sister, when I think about her, it makes me wanna cry cause I feel what she's going through. I love her, and I pray for her well-being every night. I been praying a lot this year.. someone save me.. gosh damnit.
how teh hell is this whole college thing gon work. do you realise that, that's FOUR YEARS? life is full of obstacles, this seems like this is gon' be my biggest. lord knows i ain't the prettiest, I got a little ass, and "okay" titties, and I got a nice face... man yo. sometimes i feel like i ain't good enough for him, like he's all these things.. and me.. I'M just me. like i ain't got nothing to bring to the table... oh well. im gon lay down and listen to sad songs. i ain't feelin up to par today.. i've just had a lot of things on my mind but i don't know how to get them off my mind. i'm just insecure sometimes and i hate that shit. I always gotta try to be the best, at everything. sooner or later, he gon' find someone that's better than me.. man.. what does he see in them that he don't see in me?
i did little. i went out but it wasn't worth it. i should've stayed in the house. my parents are slowly getting on my nerves. I want to punch the hell out of one of my sisters, but i'm not sure what's restraining me. I miss my eldest sister, when I think about her, it makes me wanna cry cause I feel what she's going through. I love her, and I pray for her well-being every night. I been praying a lot this year.. someone save me.. gosh damnit.