My Friends
This is why I love her. THIS is why it will never change - because i HAVE SEEN INSIDE & i know WHAT IS REAL. i AM NOT BLIND...My heart is so big it can see love clearly. LIFE happens but when you love someone you dont let things get in the way - PEOPLE over THINGS - everytime. Below is her blog that she wrote on Myspace about me APRIL 9th - BEFORE all the shit:
Christa~
Category: Friends
Growing up i always wanted that best girlfriend that i could just do nothing with and have fun. I thought i had her but whenever things happened she ran away and was never there for my support like i needed. Ten years ago i finally met that friend. I was working at OCHF and met a great girl who soon after became that friend i had always been looking for. Times were hard and together we had our ups and downs mostly due to outside sources and other people. We fought and didnt talk and would again and so on but through it all we never stopped loving eachother. This last year you have been the most amazing friend & words dont explain how great it feels. We have grown to understand each other better and know how to adress each other better and just be ourselves.
It has taken a lot for me to become the amazing person i always new was inside me and with out the help of my real friends i could have never done it. Thank you so much for sticking by and believing in me it means so much. I have now gotten the life i always wanted and the true friends i have always needed. I believe in myself now more than ever and am so happy that all the garbage is gone.
You have given to me some amazing experiences I wil never forget and we will be talking about in our matching rocking chairs on our front porches someday. And i am about to experience the birth of ur third child and cant wait to be Aunt Summy all over again. Some day you will get the great experience of becoming my childs godmother and becoming an Aunt I cant wait to share all that life has instore for us together.
Your an amazing girl and wonderful mother and devoted friend and you deserve to know how much you mean to me!
XoXO XOXo
I CRIED - AS I AM NOW. SHES NOT GOINIG ANYWHERE SO ACCEPT IT AS I DO YOUR FRIENDS AND BAD DECISIONS. I RESPECT MIKE & HIS CHOICES BUT I HAVE TWO FT & I STAND ON THEM, I HAVE MY OWN BRAIN & HEART & i USE THEM - I BREATH THIS AIR TOO - SHARE. I RESPECT YOUR DECISIONS - RESPECT MINE & DONT EVER THREATEN ME AGAIN - YOU MOST DEFINETLY WILL END UP WITHOUT ME. nO MATTER WHAT i DO - MY HEART CALLS ME BACK TO HER...i LOST WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN SOMETHING GREAT BY NOT LISTENING TO THAT CALL.GRANTED IVE RECOVERED AND HAVE SOMETHING SPECTACULOR BUT IT WAS A SOAR ROAD. I WILL NEVER NOT LISTEN AGAIN. I DONT DO COULDA WOULDA SHOULDAS - THEY MAKE ME SICK. WHAT HAPPENED HAPPENED & I LEARNED FROM IT AS I WAS SUPPOSE TO. ATLEAST I HAVE THEIR FRIENDSHIP & IT MEANS THE WORLD TO ME AS DOES HERS & YOURS & ALL MY FRIENDS. YOU SIT BACK ANS WOUNDER ALL YOU WANT - CHRISTA IS FINE....