Im at a crossroads
You know, I haven't updated here in such a long time. I can't even remember how long it has been. yes i suppose i could just look and see, but i dont really care that much. but i digress, its funny to me how i only right on here once every few months, but always at a time of extreme happiness or saddness, rarely ever do i just update to be like, hey this is whats up. its always at a big turning point or another.
take now for instance, i am at a huge crossroads in my life, i have been struggling making decision after decision. im moving to Nashville, TN. its not a huge move, about 3 hours from Knoxville. But a move non the less. It involves new roommates, a new apartment, a new job, new surroundings, and ultimately new friends. Not that the current ones will be forgotten or replaced, just that new friends will have to be made. Which is both exciting and nerve racking for me. I have got such a safety net here in Knoxville, seeing as how I have about a million and 7 friends here. I like it that way. Im moving to a town where sure I have alittle bit of that superficial recognize their face friends, but not many. and other than that I have 3 real friends. Granted they are dear friends to me. but only 3 none the less. this had worried me from the start, but at that point in time, i had a different combator for those fears. it was kyle. yes i havent updated in so long, no one would even know who kyle was. well he is this great thing that happened to me at the start of summer basically. we met, and there was just a connection from the get go. and from there it took off. fast i might add, i have never in my life fallen for someone the way that i did for him. we fell in love, no questions about it. I have never in my life been in Love with someone, not true love, and I most certainly have never said it, out loud. But we did. It was amazing, we shared so much over a not so long time. He was the first boy I have ever brought home to meet mom and dad. that was a huge step here. i did the same with him, went to dinner with his mother, her boyfriend, and his older and younger brother. oh and the older brother's girlfriend. it was an experience, but it along with countless others make up the most amazing summer and time period i have ever gone through. but sadly enough, we did break up. we are still friends, working on our relationship. it has its ups and downs. but we are working on it. the toughest part of it for me is that i still care about him. i know he does for me as well. we have talked about it. right now, he is going through the motions, experiencing college life, his own apartment, alot of first for him. that was one thing that never really ever came up as an issue for us, until school started. the age thing. he is only 18 now, soon to be 19 next week. but yeah, he has alot of living to do right now. so i know that right now that us being apart is for the best. now for what the future holds, who knows. sometimes, down deep, i have this weird feeling that we are going to get back together. but who knows, i have gotten to the point that im not living for that moment anymore. im living for me now. and whatever happens happens. but yeah, moving on...
so I am moving to nashville on Friday, next friday. had to postpone a week to wait for the apartment to be ready. its cool though, because I am still trying to nail things down with a job with Aeropostale. as most of you know, im in retail management, have been for like 6 or 7 years. trying to find an awesome management job. if you know of any, let me know :) but yeah.. so i am going to be starting a new job soon, I hope, I am waiting to hear from the DM to get some final details. getting kinda nervous... but it will all work out. but yeah, so Im moving to nashville. I need new friends. hit me up if your in the area, we should hang.
well i have ranted for a while now, my leg has actually fallen asleep now. I think that means im done. take it easy everybody.
-j
take now for instance, i am at a huge crossroads in my life, i have been struggling making decision after decision. im moving to Nashville, TN. its not a huge move, about 3 hours from Knoxville. But a move non the less. It involves new roommates, a new apartment, a new job, new surroundings, and ultimately new friends. Not that the current ones will be forgotten or replaced, just that new friends will have to be made. Which is both exciting and nerve racking for me. I have got such a safety net here in Knoxville, seeing as how I have about a million and 7 friends here. I like it that way. Im moving to a town where sure I have alittle bit of that superficial recognize their face friends, but not many. and other than that I have 3 real friends. Granted they are dear friends to me. but only 3 none the less. this had worried me from the start, but at that point in time, i had a different combator for those fears. it was kyle. yes i havent updated in so long, no one would even know who kyle was. well he is this great thing that happened to me at the start of summer basically. we met, and there was just a connection from the get go. and from there it took off. fast i might add, i have never in my life fallen for someone the way that i did for him. we fell in love, no questions about it. I have never in my life been in Love with someone, not true love, and I most certainly have never said it, out loud. But we did. It was amazing, we shared so much over a not so long time. He was the first boy I have ever brought home to meet mom and dad. that was a huge step here. i did the same with him, went to dinner with his mother, her boyfriend, and his older and younger brother. oh and the older brother's girlfriend. it was an experience, but it along with countless others make up the most amazing summer and time period i have ever gone through. but sadly enough, we did break up. we are still friends, working on our relationship. it has its ups and downs. but we are working on it. the toughest part of it for me is that i still care about him. i know he does for me as well. we have talked about it. right now, he is going through the motions, experiencing college life, his own apartment, alot of first for him. that was one thing that never really ever came up as an issue for us, until school started. the age thing. he is only 18 now, soon to be 19 next week. but yeah, he has alot of living to do right now. so i know that right now that us being apart is for the best. now for what the future holds, who knows. sometimes, down deep, i have this weird feeling that we are going to get back together. but who knows, i have gotten to the point that im not living for that moment anymore. im living for me now. and whatever happens happens. but yeah, moving on...
so I am moving to nashville on Friday, next friday. had to postpone a week to wait for the apartment to be ready. its cool though, because I am still trying to nail things down with a job with Aeropostale. as most of you know, im in retail management, have been for like 6 or 7 years. trying to find an awesome management job. if you know of any, let me know :) but yeah.. so i am going to be starting a new job soon, I hope, I am waiting to hear from the DM to get some final details. getting kinda nervous... but it will all work out. but yeah, so Im moving to nashville. I need new friends. hit me up if your in the area, we should hang.
well i have ranted for a while now, my leg has actually fallen asleep now. I think that means im done. take it easy everybody.
-j