mcallen
the depression has hit..and in a big way. and not the one about my father. i'm at peace about my dad. he was the most wonderful person i've ever met, i'll miss his laughter and bright smile, but i have his memories and know he's in a better place
the reality of living in the valley has hit me. my life in austin was so amazing. i had built up such a great group of friends. you all kept me active and very happy. oh how i love everyone there and our druken adventures. in McAllen i have one friend. no one stays in the valley...they all move off. ONE friend. today my mom and i got in a tiny fight over something stupid and i sat and cried for awhile. who do i have here? no one. what happiness is there here? none. i'm only doing this for my mom. i cant be selfish. it's been a week, and i'm going crazy in this house
the reality of living in the valley has hit me. my life in austin was so amazing. i had built up such a great group of friends. you all kept me active and very happy. oh how i love everyone there and our druken adventures. in McAllen i have one friend. no one stays in the valley...they all move off. ONE friend. today my mom and i got in a tiny fight over something stupid and i sat and cried for awhile. who do i have here? no one. what happiness is there here? none. i'm only doing this for my mom. i cant be selfish. it's been a week, and i'm going crazy in this house