AND THE CLOCK TICKS...
I think someone is out to get me. It's July 19th already? Seriously? This year has been on fast forward but only in the background, does that make sense? For me it feels like it took forever to get to this day and in the same respect time FLEW past me, it's a weird feeling and obviously hard to describe. It's not the big of deal really...there have only been a handful of moments that I've actually enjoyed or that have been stress free otherwise the past seven months can piss off! It's a random observation on my part, sorry to bore.
Currently on my mind, first and foremost, my friend Jen is dealing with some medical issues and she has a pre-surgery doc appointment this morning so I'm just focused on sending her good vibes. She's nervous and scared and just overall freaking out but I know she knows that after this is done that she'll be good to go. And then I can hopefully plan my Cali road trip and get out to visit her! We talk about that trip ALL the time and I would really like to make it happen this year, just wish I MONEY TO DO IT!! So yeah, happy thoughts to my girl Jen, LOVE <3
Work. Sucks. I've been at my current position for 13 years and because of this routine I am in no way motivated to find a new job or even a part-timer in addition to this hell hole. Working 3 days a week, 5-6 hours a day, talk about a pay cut...ugh! I have it made here, regardless of how things have taken a downward spiral in the past couple years with my relationship with my dad (boss) I admit that the pay is good for what I do and I can pretty much take vacation whenever. Never intended on staying here as long as I have but it became easy, convenient and I'm all about convenience! Part of me hates being "stuck" in a routine but change has NEVER comes easy for me so I typically just brush off the hate and suck it up. I know, I'm lame. Blah blah blah. Hope things pick up but I have a feeling I'm going to have to kick myself in the ass and figure something out, I think I need a change!
Speaking of change, living with my mom is starting to wear on me. Me being the over protective type was the main reason why I stuck around after the divorce, also the rent is cheap and who can't appreciate that?! I love living where I do but I can see us butting heads A LOT in the near future. She thinks I party too much and I think she's stupid for being in a "relationship" with someone who treats her like shit. I'm not going to get into that now, I could go on for days at how pissed off I get, just hope things don't come down to ultimatums but unfortunately it looks to be heading in that direction. Boo.
On a much happier note, my friend MaryJo is keeping me sane through everything that life throws at me. She is amazing and such a good person and I am so very thankful that I have her to lean on. MJ is just like me, we call each other Peas because we honestly are peas in a pod. I spend as much time as I can with her because she seems to know how to calm me down, make me smile and have fun more than anyone else. One of these days I'll devote an entire entry to her cause yeah, she means that much to me <3
Here's to a Monday that doesn't completely suck.
*knock on wood*
Currently on my mind, first and foremost, my friend Jen is dealing with some medical issues and she has a pre-surgery doc appointment this morning so I'm just focused on sending her good vibes. She's nervous and scared and just overall freaking out but I know she knows that after this is done that she'll be good to go. And then I can hopefully plan my Cali road trip and get out to visit her! We talk about that trip ALL the time and I would really like to make it happen this year, just wish I MONEY TO DO IT!! So yeah, happy thoughts to my girl Jen, LOVE <3
Work. Sucks. I've been at my current position for 13 years and because of this routine I am in no way motivated to find a new job or even a part-timer in addition to this hell hole. Working 3 days a week, 5-6 hours a day, talk about a pay cut...ugh! I have it made here, regardless of how things have taken a downward spiral in the past couple years with my relationship with my dad (boss) I admit that the pay is good for what I do and I can pretty much take vacation whenever. Never intended on staying here as long as I have but it became easy, convenient and I'm all about convenience! Part of me hates being "stuck" in a routine but change has NEVER comes easy for me so I typically just brush off the hate and suck it up. I know, I'm lame. Blah blah blah. Hope things pick up but I have a feeling I'm going to have to kick myself in the ass and figure something out, I think I need a change!
Speaking of change, living with my mom is starting to wear on me. Me being the over protective type was the main reason why I stuck around after the divorce, also the rent is cheap and who can't appreciate that?! I love living where I do but I can see us butting heads A LOT in the near future. She thinks I party too much and I think she's stupid for being in a "relationship" with someone who treats her like shit. I'm not going to get into that now, I could go on for days at how pissed off I get, just hope things don't come down to ultimatums but unfortunately it looks to be heading in that direction. Boo.
On a much happier note, my friend MaryJo is keeping me sane through everything that life throws at me. She is amazing and such a good person and I am so very thankful that I have her to lean on. MJ is just like me, we call each other Peas because we honestly are peas in a pod. I spend as much time as I can with her because she seems to know how to calm me down, make me smile and have fun more than anyone else. One of these days I'll devote an entire entry to her cause yeah, she means that much to me <3
Here's to a Monday that doesn't completely suck.
*knock on wood*