ALMOST EVERYDAY...
See, I told you no promises on the daily posting. I guess it's easier for me to post first thing when I get to work in the morning and since I've only been working 3 days a week it might be more of an every other day deal...unless something amazing happens that I must share immediately. Ahh well, this is how I operate, take note...moving on.
The awkwardness at home continues but I manage to smile and/or look the other way when I get uncomfortable. I was home all day yesterday, hoping to get out and do something but it was a rainy BLAH day and none of my ideas came to fruition. Mom and Brian went grocery shopping and I enjoyed having the house to myself for an hour or so. The rest of the day consisted of me texting people like crazy trying to see if anyone was up for a visit, hiding in the garage to have a smoke every hour on the hour and then some random bonding time when we watched the movie The Lovely Bones (the book was way better, as always). I did manage to get out of the house at 9pm to meet up with Caitlin and Chad for a couple beers but that turned into a lot of drama that I will not go into, childish and immature stuff that I'm just gonna shake my head at. Thankfully I managed to get around 5 hours of sleep.
I talked to my sis for the first time in a long time on Monday. She's coming home for a visit a week from Friday so we discussed plans and I filled her in on general life issues. I talked to her for about an hour but only after I made mom tell her about Brian. Yeah, my mom hasn't really told anyone about the "allofasuddenliveinboyfriend" and I've been on her case since before he got here to tell Shan but she put it off. So that was an interesting conversation, my sis is a psych doc so of course she had her analytical opinions but overall she took it ok and has the same concerns as I do. I'm just excited that she'll be home for a week, as much as it would pain me to admit this in the past I really do love my sister and miss her stupid BS :)
In other family news, my brother achieved his 6 month sober milestone last week Friday! SO very proud of him for that! I planned on taking him out to dinner, just him and I, but I got the flu bug and had to reschedule for today. We're going to Motor, the restaurant at the Harley-Davidson Museum and I'm really looking forward to it. Not only for the food, which I hear is really good, but more so for the one on one time with Scotty. I went through A LOT of shit with him in the past couple years...all his seizures, the lying, finally admitting he had a problem, the fighting, all the hospital visits/stays, drunken late night phone calls when he was at his worst, suicide attempts, the 36 hour struggle that finally was the last straw and he got help...I was there through all of it! He told me multiple times that no one understood him like I did which makes me happy knowing that he knows he has my support, I just wish he would've utilized that more but I get that he didn't want to be a burden as I feel the same way on a daily basis. But anyway, the road to recovery is long but as bad as he was, making it 6 months is a big damn deal and I'm optimistic on his continued progress. So dinner and talks tonight will be good :)
And now I start my day...at a job that continues to be lame but I have issues with change so here I sit. Just wish things would pick up, my bank accounts are yelling at me!!!
The awkwardness at home continues but I manage to smile and/or look the other way when I get uncomfortable. I was home all day yesterday, hoping to get out and do something but it was a rainy BLAH day and none of my ideas came to fruition. Mom and Brian went grocery shopping and I enjoyed having the house to myself for an hour or so. The rest of the day consisted of me texting people like crazy trying to see if anyone was up for a visit, hiding in the garage to have a smoke every hour on the hour and then some random bonding time when we watched the movie The Lovely Bones (the book was way better, as always). I did manage to get out of the house at 9pm to meet up with Caitlin and Chad for a couple beers but that turned into a lot of drama that I will not go into, childish and immature stuff that I'm just gonna shake my head at. Thankfully I managed to get around 5 hours of sleep.
I talked to my sis for the first time in a long time on Monday. She's coming home for a visit a week from Friday so we discussed plans and I filled her in on general life issues. I talked to her for about an hour but only after I made mom tell her about Brian. Yeah, my mom hasn't really told anyone about the "allofasuddenliveinboyfriend" and I've been on her case since before he got here to tell Shan but she put it off. So that was an interesting conversation, my sis is a psych doc so of course she had her analytical opinions but overall she took it ok and has the same concerns as I do. I'm just excited that she'll be home for a week, as much as it would pain me to admit this in the past I really do love my sister and miss her stupid BS :)
In other family news, my brother achieved his 6 month sober milestone last week Friday! SO very proud of him for that! I planned on taking him out to dinner, just him and I, but I got the flu bug and had to reschedule for today. We're going to Motor, the restaurant at the Harley-Davidson Museum and I'm really looking forward to it. Not only for the food, which I hear is really good, but more so for the one on one time with Scotty. I went through A LOT of shit with him in the past couple years...all his seizures, the lying, finally admitting he had a problem, the fighting, all the hospital visits/stays, drunken late night phone calls when he was at his worst, suicide attempts, the 36 hour struggle that finally was the last straw and he got help...I was there through all of it! He told me multiple times that no one understood him like I did which makes me happy knowing that he knows he has my support, I just wish he would've utilized that more but I get that he didn't want to be a burden as I feel the same way on a daily basis. But anyway, the road to recovery is long but as bad as he was, making it 6 months is a big damn deal and I'm optimistic on his continued progress. So dinner and talks tonight will be good :)
And now I start my day...at a job that continues to be lame but I have issues with change so here I sit. Just wish things would pick up, my bank accounts are yelling at me!!!