ARGH...Im not crumpling...Im strong...im angry...im fighting...somehow
Soooo...life kinda sucks right now.
I got a freakin MUNI citation cause i lost my pass...well i found pass so i SHOULD be able to show that i have it (it has date and time) and get it cleared and not have to pay....RIGHT?
WRONG...after calling and trying to ask someone about this and getting hung up on by the automated thing AND a real person (assholes) I searched forever online and found that I must pay the fine by the date stated (which changed from the 16th to the 13th now..again, assholes) and THEN i get the fun of going to this place on Bryant st which is somewhere downtown but not where the MUNI trains run...and schedule an araignment (sp?), plead not guilty...get a court date...go BACK to this place. Explain what happened, how i couldnt find my pass..how she made me late for work...and how i later found pass...and HOPE the judge lets me off for it and gives me my money back (which will probably be minus some higher than they should be crappy bull shit fees).
UGH..AND to top it off they have limited hrs so ill have to miss school and/or work to do this. GREAT!
As if that wasnt enough...ive realized lately all i do is work and go to class...and when im home i do chores/errands. THE END. WHERE IS THE FUN? This is supposed to be the time to be out having the time of my life right?
I mean i live in this awesome city and ive still never been to tons of places i wanna go.
Ive met tons of ppl in the past few yrs but only kept in touch with a tiny few. This is no bueno!
But how do i fix it??
I have to work to support myself and unless some miracle job thats local, pays more, but lets me work less drops outta the sky then i cant change that really....and i can live with less sleepishness if it means id be happier but how do i get started on this getting my social life back thing? esp when i didnt realize i was losing it when i did...if that made sense? it did in my head neway. lol
Oh and then..work has been suck lately bc of new management...i mean even the CSLs are unhappy and feeling unappreciated and theyve been freaking running the place basically! The management should be thanking them and kissing their damn feet for keeping the store running!
Im also still being illegally paid
I, pay attention to the I here, called HR and found out what needed to be done to fix things so i can get my transfer all smoothed out and then they can up my pay and gimme back pay for the last month. YEah, my mangager whose job this is didnt do it...I freaking did and I told her.
BUT of course the person who has to do it (the district mngr) is on paid leave until sunday..figures.
AND then i get the fun task of scheduling a mtg with my store mngr (who has also been on leave) to discuss upping my pay more since ive been here so damn long and deserve to make way more than new hires..esp since most of them are incompetent and i know more than some of the damn management! and to get her to fix my schedule for next week cause she gave me the wrong day off. All of which should be interesting cause so far ive gotten the feeling she doesnt totally like me or just doesnt really choose to acknowledge me much nehow...
Like i used to be on the 1st page of the schedule...when i came back after break it was the 2nd..now its the 3rd. and the schedule is usually in a sort of ranking roughly speaking.
YIPPY SKIPPY this should be such fun! (not)
BUT THEN...despite all this i was doing okay..i mean frustrated with the work but getting over it so a point...and wanting to change other things but calm about it.
But then im trying to figure out what to get my bf of almost 3 yrs for his 21st right? And im wracking my brain about it. I think maybe 21 smaller things would be cute. Like a bunch of his favorite things ya know? And then my mom says theyre throwing him a party so i think OMG i can fly down there and surprise him that wkend! SO i find tix for $147.30 for fri night til mondday. And im debating whether to do it.
cuase hes being kinda ungrateful for the party saying his friends are taking him to a 21+ club so theyre leaving after just 2 hrs and all..so then i think well why bother flying in then?
But then i think, i can talk to 1 of his friends and get him to convince the bf to stay at the party and then all will be well.
So i go to find this friends myspace to send him a msg...and on his page i come across a page with rubens pic and a diff title name...so i go to it and its totally a page about him
That i never knew he had...and hes had since last AUGUST
and it says hes freaking SINGLE!
my heart starting racing when i saw this...did someone else get his pic offline and make it of him to use (cause i kno ppl do this to promote clubs and ish) but then why does his friend have him added? All the friends are trashy girls who live all over the US tho..and theyre profiles and his have no REAL comments..just advertising and random shit. So whats the deal???
I took my roommate's advice and added him and am waiting to see what he does/says...
At least i didnt take my other roommate's advice and hire someone to kill him...lol shes unique in her problem solving ideas (just to clarify..shes totally not serious lol)
im just so sick of this shit with him
i mean it was bad enough just feeling unappreciated and like he was getting sorta distant...but this lying by omission and misleading me is a bit much. ....esp after almost THREE YEARS together!
Oh and ppl trying to tell me oh i heard from someone who he told that hes cheating and shit but they cant tell me who they heard it from??? oh okay cause that sounds legit
BTW anxiety attacks suck....yo necesito nada mas por favor! I deserve better than all this crap thats happening...dont i!?!
So ive halted on any plans for his bday...and otherwise i dont know what to do but wait...
and i hate waiting...but i need to take a shower and try to relax so i can sleep cause i got work in the am...and hopefully they dont take my on call so i can go shopping downtown and relax and enjoy myself and the city...camara is going with too...i love my new one btw and thus am excited to use it more.
okay, shower time.
I got a freakin MUNI citation cause i lost my pass...well i found pass so i SHOULD be able to show that i have it (it has date and time) and get it cleared and not have to pay....RIGHT?
WRONG...after calling and trying to ask someone about this and getting hung up on by the automated thing AND a real person (assholes) I searched forever online and found that I must pay the fine by the date stated (which changed from the 16th to the 13th now..again, assholes) and THEN i get the fun of going to this place on Bryant st which is somewhere downtown but not where the MUNI trains run...and schedule an araignment (sp?), plead not guilty...get a court date...go BACK to this place. Explain what happened, how i couldnt find my pass..how she made me late for work...and how i later found pass...and HOPE the judge lets me off for it and gives me my money back (which will probably be minus some higher than they should be crappy bull shit fees).
UGH..AND to top it off they have limited hrs so ill have to miss school and/or work to do this. GREAT!
As if that wasnt enough...ive realized lately all i do is work and go to class...and when im home i do chores/errands. THE END. WHERE IS THE FUN? This is supposed to be the time to be out having the time of my life right?
I mean i live in this awesome city and ive still never been to tons of places i wanna go.
Ive met tons of ppl in the past few yrs but only kept in touch with a tiny few. This is no bueno!
But how do i fix it??
I have to work to support myself and unless some miracle job thats local, pays more, but lets me work less drops outta the sky then i cant change that really....and i can live with less sleepishness if it means id be happier but how do i get started on this getting my social life back thing? esp when i didnt realize i was losing it when i did...if that made sense? it did in my head neway. lol
Oh and then..work has been suck lately bc of new management...i mean even the CSLs are unhappy and feeling unappreciated and theyve been freaking running the place basically! The management should be thanking them and kissing their damn feet for keeping the store running!
Im also still being illegally paid
I, pay attention to the I here, called HR and found out what needed to be done to fix things so i can get my transfer all smoothed out and then they can up my pay and gimme back pay for the last month. YEah, my mangager whose job this is didnt do it...I freaking did and I told her.
BUT of course the person who has to do it (the district mngr) is on paid leave until sunday..figures.
AND then i get the fun task of scheduling a mtg with my store mngr (who has also been on leave) to discuss upping my pay more since ive been here so damn long and deserve to make way more than new hires..esp since most of them are incompetent and i know more than some of the damn management! and to get her to fix my schedule for next week cause she gave me the wrong day off. All of which should be interesting cause so far ive gotten the feeling she doesnt totally like me or just doesnt really choose to acknowledge me much nehow...
Like i used to be on the 1st page of the schedule...when i came back after break it was the 2nd..now its the 3rd. and the schedule is usually in a sort of ranking roughly speaking.
YIPPY SKIPPY this should be such fun! (not)
BUT THEN...despite all this i was doing okay..i mean frustrated with the work but getting over it so a point...and wanting to change other things but calm about it.
But then im trying to figure out what to get my bf of almost 3 yrs for his 21st right? And im wracking my brain about it. I think maybe 21 smaller things would be cute. Like a bunch of his favorite things ya know? And then my mom says theyre throwing him a party so i think OMG i can fly down there and surprise him that wkend! SO i find tix for $147.30 for fri night til mondday. And im debating whether to do it.
cuase hes being kinda ungrateful for the party saying his friends are taking him to a 21+ club so theyre leaving after just 2 hrs and all..so then i think well why bother flying in then?
But then i think, i can talk to 1 of his friends and get him to convince the bf to stay at the party and then all will be well.
So i go to find this friends myspace to send him a msg...and on his page i come across a page with rubens pic and a diff title name...so i go to it and its totally a page about him
That i never knew he had...and hes had since last AUGUST
and it says hes freaking SINGLE!
my heart starting racing when i saw this...did someone else get his pic offline and make it of him to use (cause i kno ppl do this to promote clubs and ish) but then why does his friend have him added? All the friends are trashy girls who live all over the US tho..and theyre profiles and his have no REAL comments..just advertising and random shit. So whats the deal???
I took my roommate's advice and added him and am waiting to see what he does/says...
At least i didnt take my other roommate's advice and hire someone to kill him...lol shes unique in her problem solving ideas (just to clarify..shes totally not serious lol)
im just so sick of this shit with him
i mean it was bad enough just feeling unappreciated and like he was getting sorta distant...but this lying by omission and misleading me is a bit much. ....esp after almost THREE YEARS together!
Oh and ppl trying to tell me oh i heard from someone who he told that hes cheating and shit but they cant tell me who they heard it from??? oh okay cause that sounds legit
BTW anxiety attacks suck....yo necesito nada mas por favor! I deserve better than all this crap thats happening...dont i!?!
So ive halted on any plans for his bday...and otherwise i dont know what to do but wait...
and i hate waiting...but i need to take a shower and try to relax so i can sleep cause i got work in the am...and hopefully they dont take my on call so i can go shopping downtown and relax and enjoy myself and the city...camara is going with too...i love my new one btw and thus am excited to use it more.
okay, shower time.