Hallie..
Around this time about two years ago....Adams sister, Hallie killed herself. She was only 22.
Now....I never met her, but her story and her legacy has had a profound effect on my life. I got to "know" Hallie only in what she left behind. She was extremely creative and expressive with her ideas and emotions. She religiously wrote in journals..she laid out all her trials and tribulations for everyone to see in elaborate decoupaged posters...in yet nobody was really listening....It's unfortunate I never got to meet her. I have so many unanswered questions....
We would have been good friends. It was a tragedy I crossed paths too late. It's an even bigger tragedy that the world got in her way.
I mourn for someone I've never even met. Mostly because Hallie's death basically destroyed Adam, and this was the cause for a lot of issues he was ...poorly dealing with. It was heart wrenching to be unable to do anything, or more not being allowed to do anything to help. All I wanted was to help and be there for him, and I feel like I failed. Grief if so isolating sometimes....but in the beginning, it was one of the things that brought Adam and I together in the first place. In the end, it was one of the many things he used to push me and everyone else away.
It's painful to be severed from all that I felt connected to with her, since I found her room and journals to be a great comfort when Adam was really brutal. Her room was left completely in tact...and one of Adams cats refuses to leave it. She just stays in the closet. It's so sad.
It's hard to explain, but the last time I was able to go in there to visit said cat, I didn't know it was going to be the last time....but upon entering I said my soft hello.....and the lights flickered twice....
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=258219944
I don't know what else to say... hug your friends. People disappear too quickly.
Now....I never met her, but her story and her legacy has had a profound effect on my life. I got to "know" Hallie only in what she left behind. She was extremely creative and expressive with her ideas and emotions. She religiously wrote in journals..she laid out all her trials and tribulations for everyone to see in elaborate decoupaged posters...in yet nobody was really listening....It's unfortunate I never got to meet her. I have so many unanswered questions....
We would have been good friends. It was a tragedy I crossed paths too late. It's an even bigger tragedy that the world got in her way.
I mourn for someone I've never even met. Mostly because Hallie's death basically destroyed Adam, and this was the cause for a lot of issues he was ...poorly dealing with. It was heart wrenching to be unable to do anything, or more not being allowed to do anything to help. All I wanted was to help and be there for him, and I feel like I failed. Grief if so isolating sometimes....but in the beginning, it was one of the things that brought Adam and I together in the first place. In the end, it was one of the many things he used to push me and everyone else away.
It's painful to be severed from all that I felt connected to with her, since I found her room and journals to be a great comfort when Adam was really brutal. Her room was left completely in tact...and one of Adams cats refuses to leave it. She just stays in the closet. It's so sad.
It's hard to explain, but the last time I was able to go in there to visit said cat, I didn't know it was going to be the last time....but upon entering I said my soft hello.....and the lights flickered twice....
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=258219944
I don't know what else to say... hug your friends. People disappear too quickly.