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Ohkay. So fuck. Things are taking a bit of a downward spiral.
I have been with eli for about two weeks now. And as much as I told myself that I did not and could not like him, I did fall for him, a lot actually. He treats me better than I could have even hoped and we have been spending a lot of time together, like here when we were off being stupid on Wednesday before my one act performance
But after eli had to leave cause I was about to perform, and I did not want him there watching me. I looked out into the audience and just guess who was sitting out there, Travis. He was sittin front row right there. Since then he has messaged me and talked to me about how he would like to be with me and how he wants me… and now honestly I do not know what to do. I love being with eli so much, he is amazingly good to me and there is pretty much nothing I do not like about him but the fact that he is trisha’s best friend and not the prettiest guy out there.
But I have liked and wanted to be with Travis since like June! Travis wants to see if he can see me tonight… I do not know how things will go…I am afraid that I might cheat on Eli, which any good hearted person would then decided not to go see him tonight cause they know that there is a chance of cheating going down. But I digress, that is just not how things are going to happen.
Past all of that things have been going well. On Wednesday I preformed my one acts and it went really well. And I was fixin to spend after school today auditioning for Noises Off but mr. J is sick so it was cancelled. Argh. I was so ready too.
Valentines day was chill too, Eli gave me a big red bear and my dad ordered me a 100 lillies. It was sooooper sweet. I also went to faiths party and hooked up with Kristi and danced and had fun. And after the dance thing I went back to kristi’s we chilled till Monday when my mom made me want to kill her with a carving knife, but again, I digress.
Not much more is worth mentioning really. Everything just seems to get meshed into one big memory these days.
i guess i will leave off with some other pics that i have just not gotten around to posting up.
I have been with eli for about two weeks now. And as much as I told myself that I did not and could not like him, I did fall for him, a lot actually. He treats me better than I could have even hoped and we have been spending a lot of time together, like here when we were off being stupid on Wednesday before my one act performance
But after eli had to leave cause I was about to perform, and I did not want him there watching me. I looked out into the audience and just guess who was sitting out there, Travis. He was sittin front row right there. Since then he has messaged me and talked to me about how he would like to be with me and how he wants me… and now honestly I do not know what to do. I love being with eli so much, he is amazingly good to me and there is pretty much nothing I do not like about him but the fact that he is trisha’s best friend and not the prettiest guy out there.
But I have liked and wanted to be with Travis since like June! Travis wants to see if he can see me tonight… I do not know how things will go…I am afraid that I might cheat on Eli, which any good hearted person would then decided not to go see him tonight cause they know that there is a chance of cheating going down. But I digress, that is just not how things are going to happen.
Past all of that things have been going well. On Wednesday I preformed my one acts and it went really well. And I was fixin to spend after school today auditioning for Noises Off but mr. J is sick so it was cancelled. Argh. I was so ready too.
Valentines day was chill too, Eli gave me a big red bear and my dad ordered me a 100 lillies. It was sooooper sweet. I also went to faiths party and hooked up with Kristi and danced and had fun. And after the dance thing I went back to kristi’s we chilled till Monday when my mom made me want to kill her with a carving knife, but again, I digress.
Not much more is worth mentioning really. Everything just seems to get meshed into one big memory these days.
i guess i will leave off with some other pics that i have just not gotten around to posting up.