Ouran: Catch Me On the Edge
Written for ouran_contest's "Unbelievable" challenge. I think I stayed under the 300-word limit...
More TamaHaru this time, because I'm addicted. BUT, it's Haruhi-centric this time. Yay me for finally straying away from the constant Tama-ness.
WARNING: manga spoilers everywhere!
Unbelievable!
Truly, completely, honestly unbelievable!
It’s been so long since that day that I used those magazines as a way to fully understand my feelings for you. I talked to Mei about it, I thought about it for so long by myself, and it’s taken a while, I admit, to realize exactly what these warm, soft feelings are inside of me. I can readily say now that I think they are something like love, different from the love that I feel for the other members of the Host Club. It’s somehow more buoyant, more influential. It affects me so much!
But what is so unbelievable to me that you, usually so ready to come out and say things, to stumble on your words but release everything, have remained so silent! I just want to know now… what are your feelings, Tamaki-sempai? Why do you just stand there, silent and smiling in that silly way at me, when all this time you’ve been lying about everything. If you were afraid of losing us or of losing me, why didn’t you say something? Why didn’t you reach out as you have so many times in the past, and grab my hand to catch me? While I guess my feelings for you may have been obvious, I can’t help but wonder if you noticed. Why didn’t you catch me when you saw me teetering on the edge and then falling for you?
As I head down the hallway to get my things, I pass you. You are on the phone. I hear you say “Hello, Hikaru. Can you find some time later? There’s something I want to talk about…” I see you look up at me as you flip the phone closed, and for a moment there is nothing but us. Finally, I take a deep breath. I’m tired of being the one to hide.
“Tamaki-sempai!” I say, almost in a shout, and you seem startled. For a moment there is silence, and then I speak as slowly and carefully as I can. “I know it seems rash but… I need to tell you how I feel…”
More TamaHaru this time, because I'm addicted. BUT, it's Haruhi-centric this time. Yay me for finally straying away from the constant Tama-ness.
WARNING: manga spoilers everywhere!
Unbelievable!
Truly, completely, honestly unbelievable!
It’s been so long since that day that I used those magazines as a way to fully understand my feelings for you. I talked to Mei about it, I thought about it for so long by myself, and it’s taken a while, I admit, to realize exactly what these warm, soft feelings are inside of me. I can readily say now that I think they are something like love, different from the love that I feel for the other members of the Host Club. It’s somehow more buoyant, more influential. It affects me so much!
But what is so unbelievable to me that you, usually so ready to come out and say things, to stumble on your words but release everything, have remained so silent! I just want to know now… what are your feelings, Tamaki-sempai? Why do you just stand there, silent and smiling in that silly way at me, when all this time you’ve been lying about everything. If you were afraid of losing us or of losing me, why didn’t you say something? Why didn’t you reach out as you have so many times in the past, and grab my hand to catch me? While I guess my feelings for you may have been obvious, I can’t help but wonder if you noticed. Why didn’t you catch me when you saw me teetering on the edge and then falling for you?
As I head down the hallway to get my things, I pass you. You are on the phone. I hear you say “Hello, Hikaru. Can you find some time later? There’s something I want to talk about…” I see you look up at me as you flip the phone closed, and for a moment there is nothing but us. Finally, I take a deep breath. I’m tired of being the one to hide.
“Tamaki-sempai!” I say, almost in a shout, and you seem startled. For a moment there is silence, and then I speak as slowly and carefully as I can. “I know it seems rash but… I need to tell you how I feel…”